Try making friends but I fear rejection.
I cant tell whether I correctly see that I am being fucked with or whether I am making something bigger than it is.
I also get really angry, but I try not to show it.
I feel im being fucked with.
I think I am right.
but the pain of rejection weighs so heavy on my heart and the past experiences make me want to push through the pain.
Trying to break the cycle is tough, but I have to try walking into a trap, maybe that will make life better?

My insides are fucking eating me...