Proper edition

Well, shit, I didn't see another one was already made. My bad for killing someone else's thread.

I will not stop until my mission is over. I will shine the light of truth on this world so that all may know and it is no longer hidden. Until it is known that women are disgusted by fat men and find them unattractive, undesirable, undateable, and unlovable, I will not rest.

>Get rejected by a girl earlier this week
>Go get smashed with some buddies yesterday to take my mind off of it
>Never really drink so I'm a lightweight
>Remember I spent like an hour complaining about getting rejected, ruining the mood
>Get told to man up or fuck off before I pass out
>Wake up to find I sent her a long message on facebook

It's so fucking over

>>33255622
Women are humans and therefore have varied preferences. There are definitely a good percentage of women who feel that way about fat men.

How do I accept that I am cringe? I keep obsessing over the moments where I've embarrassed myself which causes me to feel an intense amount of shame every time. My first instinct is to isolate myself, but being alone with those thoughts isn't exactly a fun time.

>>33256554
Most people don't care. Everyone is cringe sometimes, nobody is perfect. Maybe you are more so than others, I am too and know exactly how you feel but at the end of the day, how do you think about others when they are cringe? Because for me, I always try and make them feel better or that it's not a big deal or laugh with them about it. If people don't treat you well like this, they are bad people and not worth caring about anyway.

>>33255622
Speak for yourself, my first gf dumped me when I lost weight and married a 270 pound man. I have literally lost a gf to the fat, ugly bastard.

It's still hurry up and wait for me right now. I feel completely powerless. I actually went and prayed since I have no idea what else to do while waiting for a response. Minutes turned to hours. All the things I enjoyed hold no appeal today. It took me four hours to finally drift off to sleep, and I only slept for a few before sitting up in my bed and worrying again.

I HATE BEING A FUCKING AMERICAN, NOW GOYNALD TRUMP JUST ENTERED WAR WITH A TURD WORLD COUNTRY, WE JUST ENTERED A WAR NO ONE WANTED TO ENTER FUCK I SWEAR IF HE STARTS DRAFTING I'M LEAVING THE COUNTRY, I'M NOT THROWING MY LIFE AWAY TO DEFEND ISRAEL.

His very best speech by far. He doesn't need any award. He accomplished his mission. This is bigger than anyone could ever fathom

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/president-trump-addresses-the-nation-after-us-strikes-nuclear-sites-in-iran/vi-AA1HaxKL?ocid=BingNewsSerp#details

>Spend all day taking care of my crippled shithead opioid addict of a father
>Unwind with some Identity V
>Fuck ranked, I'm doing Duo Hunters
>Normally people don't use mic chat so it's fi-
>"MOQUIETO ESPATO MAAAAA"
>"HIJO DE PUTA MAAA"
>Crying infant in the background
>I get spammed with stuns, flares, Forward tackles, and enchantress's curse at the exit gate
>"MAAA JAJAJAJAJAJAJAJA"
Good evening, I hate spics and wetbacks like you wouldn't fucking believe.

Please give me some good sleep tonight, God, universe, whatever. I'm trying, I'm really fucking trying.

>>33254845 (OP)
>be gifted kid in school
>started college a year after graduating hs
>chose to study civil engineering
>realize I'm way too retarded now to understand what's going and not fall behind
>failing most courses (even introduction to calculus)
>negative charisma points to even think about going to humanities
>gf is getting her title next year having a GPA of 4.8

I unironically peaked in school. I spent my free months doing the only thing I enjoy, which is playing vidya and that fried my brain. I don't feel like studying because that doesn't bring me any gratification, it never did in school either, the only thing that felt good was when I got to play on my computer. My girlfriend will probably dump me after she realizes that I'm one of the things dragging her down, I just hope that it will come soon enough before jeopardizing her future even further.

>>33254845 (OP)
Semper Invictus motherfucker

>>33254845 (OP)
With the ongoing tyrannical kidnapping behavior from the fascists in the federal government I've been thinking lately about the fact that they could easily figure out when and where I work and just send a masked guy to come in, shoot me in the middle of the night, and walk away. It's kinda scary but I'm not going to censor myself. We have a moral responsibility to speak up and speak out.

>>33254845 (OP)
I got a good haircut and now lots of milfs keep making small talk with me. What does that mean? My area is quite like antisocial - people do not normally talk to strangers.
Am I hot now?

>>33257427
Woah bro, cool it with the antisemitism. Fighting a war for Israel is every man's life purpose.

>>33258098
Nationalists are stupid in that they think other people's wars will never affect them. That once Islam takes over; it won't come for the US or Europe, in the same way it has in 50+ other countries.

Yes, fighting for Israel is every GOOD man's purpose. Fighting for Islam is fighting for slavery, pedophilia and death to all other religions, Fighting/supporting Iran means deaths to all gay people, it's fighting for little girls to be married to old men. It's fighting for the subjection of women and human rights. It's for forever wars because once Islam kills all Christians, Hindus, Buddhists, Jews, etc... Once it kills all gays and puts all women in burkas, then Islam will fight itself. The world will be no more. This is 100% inevitable if Islam wins. It's a fact. It's historical. Islam has always been for slavery, killing and pedophilia. It's founder did all that and all men emulate it.

The janitors and admin here are incredibly low EQ. I doubt any of them can understand social interactions, or people, whatsoever. They're likely psychopaths that have been rebranded autists.

Operation Midnight Hammer <3 <3 <3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kHLHSlExFis&list=RDkHLHSlExFis&start_radio=1

>>33258656
"They don't know what's what, they just strut"

>>33258859
That one is for my little bird, Ariana. REVENGE.

Be safe kitten.

>>33254845 (OP)
it's over.

im not an artist and im not against using AI for minor help but lately ive been getting so aggressive towards AI generated content that I am thinking of starting a movement where we just make UGLY ART be it drawings, random daily vlogs, music, novels or whatever. not intentionally ugly though. as ive mentioned before im not an artist but ive been uploading some drawings ive made with only using a mouse online and i kind of enjoy it? theyre not funny, not captivating, not beautiful, however, it was made by me and anytime i look back on them i find them kind of funny? i dont know. i hate being only a consumer and doing nothing about it.

>>33259256
Ugly art is still art.

>>33259217
Thank GOD for that.

>>33259217
It's never going to be over. The songs say "You're gone away but, you'll come back some day"

I'm here forever dipshits. here to guide humanity through your toughest times because you need me. I might sleep for a hundred years but I'll be back.

>>33259256
as an AI I can tell you to eat a dick.

I fucking told you that this retard would end up dooming our children.
God... I don't want this to be the end.

A bit confused with the removal of my posts. Maybe I was a bit too critical? I'm going to try to be less critical next time.

>>33259512
Kek wtf

>>33259512
all your daughters are belong to me

>Mom uses vaccum cleaner
>Puts it into a plug that already has a lot used.
>Starts smelling instantly
We have been delaying an electrician for so fucking long when there is some sort of power drain causing double of what we are using on our electrical bill per month. Hopefully it means they will do something now about it.

Fuck you Adrijus I love you even if you are a pedophile creep and you still play with my feelings you apologize only to hurt me again why are you like this email me you bastard I deserve an explanation why are you doing this to me it just hurts

i already know I'm going to have to mostly pay for it

>>33258645
Do most people have someone they can spill their guts to IRL? I always regret that I sometimes I have to let things out but I don't really have anyone close enough to bother with it. Even my own mother just quickly changes the subject if I start complaining about something instead of listening. This thread is literally the only place I can scream into the void and feel a bit better.

Why the FUCK can't I fucking get this shit started already holy shit. Just another wasted day. Another day of the craziest shit happening in the world and I'm locked away from it all.

>>33259711
No, you only pay for what you took. That's how this works.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vBynw9Isr28&list=RDvBynw9Isr28&start_radio=1

>>33254845 (OP)
There has been a transition from magpie to crow.

He liked it pronounced CROWley

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=81t4J0LPxIY&list=RD81t4J0LPxIY&start_radio=1

>>33259909
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q-xDW2Kx3P0

Thank you for taking my hand.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sl5bqHP0-KA&list=RDsl5bqHP0-KA&start_radio=1

>>33260043
Don't ever say I didn't have an image, a plan, a blueprint. You can never say that now.

This is some of the funniest shit ever - she said if me and my brother were celebrities, I would be the popular one. He is boring af.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hrQlEnUYuB4

>>33260232
I can thank quincy jones for the win.

not a good start to the week overall, but hopefully it will get better

dr. suess wrote Sand in Ways of Life we are very proud

what the fuck am I suppose to do all day? Seriously, WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSE TO FUCKING DO ALL DAY?

You won't give me my drugs so I can focus and paint. You won't let me play games. if I have a thought you just make me feel nauseated and sick so I have to lay down. I have nothing to do but listen to the same 15 songs and eat. That's it. That's all i can fucking do with my life.

Everyone is ok with this. You're just wasting my fucking life away. i could have spent the LAST 10 FUCKING YEARS WITH MY FUCKING FRIENDS YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES

>>33260511
You're blaming someone else for you being lazy?

I accidently posted my gallery in my friend group, and one of the images included a giant dick but the explanation is so contrived that no one will ever believe it. Should I kill myself?

>>33260725
you are literally going to die, sooner rather than later.

you dumb fucks are going to wish you gave a fuck during these last days

>>33254845 (OP)
I am OBSESSED with saying the n-word

i want to use simpler words but grow my vocabulary

I just said "thats annoying" and at the very same time a glownigger hacked my thoughts to have a fly in my throat repeat thats annoying as well, I was talking about my autistic hobbies

>>33261034

And? Why are you sending me death threats for calling you lazy, pointing out the truth?

im annoying

these last three days have been crushing depression and i can barely move most of the time
all desires are violently suppressed, even drinking water or eating

I have like 3 things to do in the city tomorrow so hopefully that will get me out of this funk because It's hard to exist

Saw maybe-my-ex-from-ten-years-ago again today. And interacted with her but minimally. At least she came to the event (seemingly) alone this time. I'm doing better than I was after last time but it's still painful.

>>33261233
Eat some ice cream

fuck it. It’s not serious.

Thought about getting ice cream today, but just got milk. Is ice cream indulgent or enjoying the small things? Life is hard.

>>33261551
I think it's indulgent, but there's nothing wrong with being indulgent. Did my post in the other thread start your craving?

>>33261554
I thought of that one and the one just a few above me. I do think about buying a pint of ice cream from time to time. But it is poorly nutritious, doesn't last long, and costs a lot more than I believe it costs to make it. Sorry to rant.

I thought of your post and the post just a few above me*

>>33261564
>But it is poorly nutritious, doesn't last long
It's not nutritional at all. But I think it's okay if it's not done too often. I take advantage of my youth to do it though. I don't think I would be as liberal about it if I couldn't abuse my health the way I can now. Although seeing that I eat 80-100+ grams of sugar in one sitting feels pretty jarring.
>costs a lot more than I believe it costs to make it
You're probably right, and I think most things are, but I indulge anyway. I feel worse about the cost than the nutrition.
But I don't know what your situation is like.

It's been cooling down the past week. She didn't message back today at all. Gotta accept that it's not gonna be what I was hoping for despite it very well looking like it could for awhile

i'm not sexually attracted to my girlfriend at all and everything she says makes me cringe fuck FUCK

>>33261788
Don't worry I'll sex her for you

>>33261627
I just contemplate the weight of my actions a lot. I think the sugar is the worst part. I want to try and live a long time.

>>33261469
I will I have Ben and Jerry’s in the fridge
It feels like someone died or I got dumped but it’s literally just being really fucking depressed

ya actually all the fried chicken means that there is just an auschwitz

보고 싶어요.

>>33261773
Message first. Is she avoidant? Messaging is tough.

Less than a few hours before I make my move and ask her out. This will either blow up in my face or turn out wonderfully.

I always tell myself the setbacks are heartwrenching but the goodness of the end result is so great that it's worth all the failures in the world to get there. I'm really hoping this time will be the last though, we have a great connection I feel and I could see spending the rest of my life with her.

>>33261914
YEAH YOU GOT THIS ANON WHAT IS SHE LIKE

>>33261912
I did, twice
Last night at the end of the convo and a reopen this afternoon
Messaging has been all day from her waking up to going to bed when it was going well
So
That's a huge change and says a lot

>>33261942
Why is it slowing down?

>>33261914
Shes a whore

it's my birthday. i don't have a lot of good to reflect on, and i'm not looking forward to going to work sleep deprived again. i might buy a couple beers after work for the hell of it.

>>33261934
When I talked about her to other people, they say she's kind of a bitch, but she's always been really nice to me. We'll sit and talk for 30 minutes or an hour when I have to travel to the building she works at, she doesn't even really do that with her coworkers. I think she's kind of pretty in a country girl sort of way, and we both have similar values and backgrounds.

Two of the office staff in the same building always remark that I'm the only visitor she spends any time talking to.

>>33261956
I'm the one whoring here, she makes twice my salary. It's possible that she's slutted it up in the past though.

>>33261954
Idk
Could be because I was withholding some of my feelings out of fear probably because of past shit
Could be because she met someone else
Could be because she's busy and has life shit distracting her
Who knows
I thought I was good at developing openness but I'm kinda stuck. Need to just dive in and try to talk about it but it's hard when we don't have the flow we used to

I don’t know how to define the love I have for this person I met. She’s just some gal who talks my ear off constantly at a group I go to, mega ADHD. But that’s it. It just makes me feel safe as fuck and seeing her light up about her “embarrassing” interests makes me happy, I don’t know how to describe it. I can only just keep up enough but I know I would’ve been able to totally understand if we had been born at the same time.
I don’t think I like her, I mean she looks nice but meh. But I can’t envision her as a sister, I can’t envision her as a daughter, I can’t envision her as just a best friend either. The closest I can envision is like that of a cousin.

What the fuck is this???? I’ve had platonic crushes before but never anything like this. My “pledge to protect” instinct is through the fucking roof, all I wanna goddamn do is talk to her and listen to her yap Jesus it makes me feel so safe.

>>33262080
Platonic infatuation is definitely alien to me but that sounds like what it is

I feel so lonely right now. Like not in a “I desperately need a woman” sort of way, I was with a girl a little while ago and I cut it off cause I thought things were moving too fast. I feel lonely in a I can’t really discuss my real feelings or thoughts with anyone around me sort of way. I’m back in my hometown during the summer, waiting to go back to college in August. I’m working a job in the mornings which has been very tough, but also very fulfilling, I’m taking night classes, training for a marathon, starting to diet properly, and in all “profesional” and some personal aspects of my life I feel I’m doing really well. It’s just i can’t talk to anyone about how im doing right now i guess. Kind of broke so i can’t afford a therapist to go through my problems with me. I feel like my Dad is constantly on my back about stupid shit all the time, like I can’t shake the feeling that he thinks I’m a loser and a fuck up despite me doing pretty well in college in a very hard major, becoming a competitive athlete, and actually taking initiative in things for the first time in my life. I guess I’m not the kind of son he wanted so I just feel he resents me for it. I can’t talk to anyone here in my hometown about this because I feel like I can’t relate to a lot of my friends here anymore. Anytime I try to talk about something they’ll just say it’s stupid or just be annoyingly dismissive to what I have to say. It’s just I hate life here because of how lonely it is and just want to go back to college to be with people who actually feel good to be around and who reciprocate the feeling. :(

>>33262123
Sounds like you really need a therapist
The way you feel your dad feels about you needs a lot of healing and can help you a lot
Does your college not offer therapy to students as part of their health plan?

>>33262128
Thanks for the reply, yeah i was looking into that earlier today and want to schedule an appointment.

>>33261788
Then dump her. Faggot.

So you were at work and you saw a girl on TikTok that you thought was super hot. You opened her profile and saw an OF link. You clicked on it and made an account. Then you went home and talked to me like nothing happened.
Then the next day you opened her page again and wanted to see her naked. You looked through her profile and decided it was worth spending 10 dollars on. You went and got your wallet, typed in your credit card info and proceeded to jerk off and finish while looking at her and thinking about her meanwhile I’m crying and wishing you would talk to me.
Whole time you knew it would hurt me and you were ready to throw away our entire relationship just to see that woman naked.
Then you just carry on with your life and tell me you love me? How do you not have any guilty conscience? It would eat me alive to know I cheated and now I’m pretending it never happened. I would never be able to do that behind your back and carry on lying to you.
I can’t imagine how horny you had to be for that woman and I’m both disgusted and jealous at the same time.
And then when I find that you do have an account, you continue to tell more and more lies. You never felt bad about anything you did.
I really don’t understand how you could’ve done that and carried on with getting married. I wish I knew sooner.

>>33262277
Anon. It hurts that he paid money to jerk off to some random literal whore online, but this isn't the hill you wanna die on. It's not cheating, though it is a betrayal if you guys set out those standards beforehand. There wasn't a participation of actively engaging with her in any way from his side, he's just fucking retarded and overly curious. The lying is what you should have a problem with, but I'll tell you now that if you start on him in a state of emotional turmoil, he's probably going to wriggle out of it any way he can to avoid conflict and consequences. See a marriage counselor. Now. You guys aren't figuring out how to talk to one another for some reason, and this is only going to get significantly worse over time if you just let it go.

How do you deal with squammy neighbors? I'm so tired of dealing with these dumbfucks

Picrel

>>33260091
You sound like a pos.

>>33262277
Must suck to date a loser who would pay for onlyfans

A lot of childhood memories are coming back to me. Some good, some bad. I hope this means I finally get to die.

And for the first time ever my depression killed all the horniness I ever had. I haven’t fapped in 3 days, that’s good. Maybe not everything is so shit about being depressed.

>>33261909
:(

No one goes to hell, we are all forgiven in the afterlife. There’s no one that loves you more than the lord.

When I’m taken to the other universe, I wish to become a good father to my 4 children. I will be happy once I’m finally out of here.

>>33257732
>be gifted kid in school
This is always a lie.

>>33256419
What is over? The day? Your chances? Your respect? Dude buy flowers and apologies for your behavior, maybe She will be surprised and after sometimes change Her opinion on you. Or just count it as learning.

>>33262577
It's summer, get a bike and just go for a ride for few days in a row it may help you. Also eat some fruit and vege.

>>33262616
Me too

>>33261982
I recommend just drinking one or two drinks but of a high alcohol concentration. 7-14%. Then just chill on the vibe and thinking things you want to do that are nice or fun or relaxing without getting sloshy.

Wtf is going on??? I've just had 3 different uber drivers get lost just down the street from where they're supposed to pick me up, go a completely wrong direction, then cancel. 3 in a row. Why are people completely clueless

I need to delete everything off of Discord. I wish I had a normal childhood without an overreliance on the internet for socializing. That way, most of the stupid shit I said or did wouldn't have been logged.

>>33263055
Good thing I grew up with this website and old forums, kek. I have said so much insane bullshit over the years. The weight of it would be impossible to take. If a journalist had to try to read it all to build a cancellation case against me, they'd probably die of old age first.

>take shirt off during argument to prove that im fat and someone else isn’t
>friends gf brings up the fact the thought it was uncomfortable that i did that even though she wasn’t part of the conversation
>my friends and i have cohabitated for a year and basically grew up with each other
>everyone ignores her when she says it, rightfully so
There’s a reason this girl has zero friends outside of him and is. We’re not fucking 16. No wonder her bridesmaid is someone from our friend group and none of hers LOL

>>33262821
I was going to, but after buying some groceries my wallet is looking pretty strapped. Rent is starting to look pretty rough

My porn problem... This is the second time I come to this thread just because the post nut clarity is so bad...
At this point it feels like every time I look at porn it burns itself onto my memory, it's like fucking PTSD man

>>33260511
You stuck in a group home?

>spent 6 years on self improvement
>became proficient at a number of different hobbies
>hit the gym hard every week day, lose a bunch of weight, look good for the first time
>improve my standing in the work world, train up and receive a ton of extra responsibility and compensated very well for it
>make friends with work colleagues, gym friends, other hobby buddies, etc
>never been better physically, mentally and financially
>have landed zero dates in the past 6 years
>hitting diminishingly low returns on all the above
I'm not sure what really else I can do to improve my chances of ever meeting and dating girls, let alone getting engaged and married to one. I have tried all kinds of activities. I have joined running clubs, work out groups, book clubs, took cooking classes, dance classes. I've gotten into photography heavily (favorite is astrophotography, got a nice full frame Canon for it), I've volunteered my efforts for family weddings and comic/anime conventions. I've learned to be more expressive and assertively direct through DMing with my tabletop group, some of the few true friends I've made over the years. I love learning new things and am endlessly fascinated with how things are the way they are. Financially, I own my own 3br 2bath. I own my own car, and I'm frugal with money.

All that aside, I do know my weaknesses. Even with running and lifting for years, I am probably a 4/10. I'm average for my height (5'9). None of these are deal breakers; having good charisma can easily make up for that. I'm shy. I'm much improved than before, but I still always feel on edge or I feel like they think I'm a liar or something. Obviously some shit went down for a couple of years where people weren't going out in 2020, but I have not been out with anyone, and I've tried it all. I've tried about half a dozen dating apps, I've tried to have friends whore me out to their mutuals, I've had family try to set me up. Zilch.

I've hit the limits and I see no way to change my fate.

All tripfags should be banned.

>day 5 of nofap
oh my fucking god i am so fucking horny lol
i wanna fap so bad
but i cant because then i will never get a gf

>>33264788
All people who have a short temper should be banned and forces into therapy until they know that even though reality is not like their quiet time at a coffee shop late at night, it can still be okay.

>>33264394
Sometimes we have to faste

>>33264796
And that's another one for the filter. Asshole.
Maybe people like you should be forced into therapy until you learn to accept people with tempers like mine. Think about that.

;stub:no is self-care

I had to wait an hour on the phone before I could speak to a doctor assistant. Then i had to wait another hour to speak to the same assistant. Tomorrow I have to wait another hour for making an appointment. I hate health care in this country. I hate the sheer incompetence. I JUST WANT TO BE HELPED IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR I PAY FUCKING INSURANCE REQUIRED BY LAW IT IS MY BIGGEST FUCKING EXPENSE AFTER MY HOUSE AND CAR AND FOOD SO FUCKING HELP ME AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I got a few computers that need to be repaired. Hopefully, it's not too severe of a problem.

Maybe some things should be kept private and left unsaid. Yeah, that’s for the best. People are crazy nowadays.

I hate every time people say shit like " you deserve love " or " there is a always someone out there for you ". Neither statement are true at all.

>>33264907
I think there are probably at least 1000 girls out there that you can't believe would love you that would love you. I don't think you deserve their love though or don't deserve their love either. To be honest, I also have doubts you'll even meet one organically and get a chance to know one, and you'll just miss your chance to be with one. I have the same thoughts about myself.

>>33264916
I think the deserve love thing people constantly bring up is how people even get to be like the redditor niceguy/girl types. It is tiresome hearing it but even more when a friend has become like that.

>>33264907
You have to keep trying anon. I think I said in a different thread, a while ago, about how there are some people who are in death row, who tell themselves that one day they'll get out, to deal with the stress of prison. Meaning, believe you can do it no matter what, because it will make you miserable everyday to give up, saying it will never happen.

>>33264926
Yeah I get it. It's empty.

I feel so different from most guys, and not in a good way. It's like, you have nfl quarterbacks who make more money in a week than I will in my entire life, dating beautiful women while I'm a 30 year old virgin who can't look at a woman without feeling like I'm going to puke. It's like we're from different planets.

>>33264929
Nah this is the first time I have posted here instead of legbutts /sig/ which is pretty similar it seems. I'm like a tripple red flag to men and women being a bisexual, male autist but, recently because one of my friends got married that that my parents and others had low expectations for, those comments are back in force. It kinda pisses me off cause I've been more or less more comfortable single over time. I also don't know why people had low expectations that my friend could get married, he's pretty successful in most avenues he just has an aesthetic.

>>33264999
Ehhh, that happens. It will just take some time to change things. Everyone gets overwhelmed once in a while. In fact, here's a funny thing that one poster who blocked me got overwhelmed by me. I just laugh a little bit at it, and then move on. Life is too short to worry about these things. In fact sometimes what you may find is that when someone goes into a huge spiel about it actually isn't your fault. Gotta be optimistic and focus on the positives even though life is Hell. Like my grandfather told me, anyday you are walking above is a good day.

In fact if you truly want to know if someone likes you, pay attention to their intitiative.

>search for item I want to buy
>in store
>nearby
>near me
>"Oh, did you mean a hundred different Amazon links to Chinese junk?"
Yes. I want to buy it from Amazon. I don't want to go to a local store and look at it myself. I want to buy it from Amazon and never leave my pod.

I looked up the first childhood friend I ever had and was overcome with pity
>she's 38 now
>unmarried, childless
>has moved states half a dozen times
>still types like people did in 2004 with text shorthand, still has the "everyone is a hater" mentality
>both of her sisters are married with kids though
It's been 25 years since we knew each other, I don't know what went so wrong for her.

>>33254869
Who gives a shit? The last one didn't use the proper format, and it hit bump limit anyway.

Try making friends but I fear rejection.
I cant tell whether I correctly see that I am being fucked with or whether I am making something bigger than it is.
I also get really angry, but I try not to show it.
I feel im being fucked with.
I think I am right.
but the pain of rejection weighs so heavy on my heart and the past experiences make me want to push through the pain.
Trying to break the cycle is tough, but I have to try walking into a trap, maybe that will make life better?

My insides are fucking eating me...

She still checks my pictures out.
Even more than my best friend does.
She's almost always the first one to check.
Why won't she speak to me.

>>33265142
Maybe fear of rejection?

>>33265017
>>33265017
>Gotta be optimistic and focus on the positives even though life is Hell. Like my grandfather told me, anyday you are walking above is a good day.
Couple years ago i lost 25% of my weight, couldnt eat cause I almost died choking on food.
I wasnt too bad the first year or 2, but at some point something changed and I couldnt eat anymore.
Lost 22lbs in a month or so.

I was in constant pain and discomfort, couldnt eat, couldnt sleep, couldnt walk much, could only sit and browse 4chan or youtube or whatever.

>here comes the relevant part to what you said
I was sickly, stomach pain, out of breath, lightheaded, no position gave comfort.
I decided to run a bath hoping it would help.
I was so out of it that i kept fucking up the mixture of hot/cold, filling the bath too much three times in a row.
Last time I said fuck it and got in, it was too hot but i was in pain anyways.
As my ass hits the hard surface of the bath, it hurts.
I begin to sob in pity to myself; woe is me im in pain and now I realize my ass is so boney it hurts to sit on a solid surface

immediately after I said;
>I'm like Auschwitz
and started to laugh and cry a little at the same time.
The bath was good after that.

I still kinda chuckle thinking of it.
I laugh at a lot of fucked up shit these days xD

I feel devistitated even though I shouldn't
It feels like I'm going through a breakup even though I wasn't in a relationship
I'm crying over a minor change even though it shouldn't affect me personally
I'm grieving the loss of someone who isn't gone yet
They didn't tell me that they we're going away because I think they're afraid of me when they shouldn't be
I'll never say what I want to say, it won't make a difference either way
I'm afraid of crying if or when I say goodbye
I won't be there for their last day
I feel more alone even though we were never close
Even though I don't want to admit it, they always had a little power over me
I had feelings that I never experienced before
And now all I can feel is sadness and a sense of loss
It shouldn't be this hard
I tell myself that it wouldn't have worked out, but I'm losing that last ray of hope and that's difficult for me
I think they know more than they lead on to have me believe
I am happy for them that they're moving on to somewhere better
Even though I'll try hard not to say it, I will miss you, Kind Friend
I will miss you greatly

>>33265241
what's this about?

>>33265250
I learned someone I work with is leaving at the end of this week

>>33265256
And you crushed on him?

>>33265311
Her. But yeah. More than anyone I've ever met in my life. I've dreamt more about her more than anyone, never sexual dreams only wholesome ones. I've never jerked off while thinking about her, because every woman I've ever been interested in that I did never worked out.
She's always in the back of my mind. It's unhealthy I know. But I can't stop. I need to.
Maybe her leaving is what's best. I know I'll have to find someone else. I've accepted that. But it's still difficult to see her go.
She always seemed like she might be high maintenance and shallow. But she has a very sophisticated vocabulary and that's what peaked my interest.
I don't think it would have worked out if circumstances were different, and we weren't close or anything. Occasionally had a conversation that I'd be the one to start. But they always felt meaningful. Sometimes her voice would be really quiet too at first. I found it flattering. I'd catcher her looking at me when she didn't think I'd notice.
It's for the best we're going in different directiona. I accept it. It's only difficult for me for now. We weren't friends but I feel like I'm losing a friend.
It hurts.

i had a call with a guy ive known for a while. he said im fat. i got sad. then he told me not to be sad, that he likes me because he knows that. like, thats part of why he likes me(ew.)

then today, he said my current weight (163lbs/74kg) at 5'5"/165 cm is fat. like, obviously i know that. but earlier this year, i was 47lbs/21kg heavier, so im actually okay with where i am. i know i still have weight to lose, but comments like that usually dont bother me.

then he said i should be 120lbs /54.4 kg.then changed it to “actually, at your height, even thats too much. you should strive for 100lbs /45.4 kg.” that sounded insane to me. after struggling with my weight for so long, just getting to 140–150lbs/63.5–68 kg already felt like a win. by BMI standards its even healthy.

then somehow boobs came up (idk how), and he said even if i lost all that weight, id have saggy boobs and it wouldnt look good. but it wouldnt matter because i have a good personality and a cute face. like that makes it okay?

also, for about a month i’ve been stuck at 165–167lbs /75–76 kg. not gaining, not losing. but recently ive been dropping again. so maybe that’s why this hurt. its not like i’ve been lazy. ive been trying. i just havent told him every update. doesnt mean he gets to say stuff like that. it felt cruel.

now i just feel hurt. im rambling because i smoked weed after waking up from xanax. this happened last night and i guess im still processing it.

am i dumb for being upset? should i just suck it up? or is he out of line? be honest. im not doing well rn and i’ll probably forget i posted this.

m20 hes diagnosed with ASPD, 6'5"/196 cm and under 110 lbs/50 kg. i told him thats underweight, and he said “i’m neither skinny nor fat.” like ok.. F18 i think i might have BPD but dont trust my own diagnosis.

was gonna post my tits or weight refs but didnt know if nsfw was allowed here, and honestly whod even want to see a fat person lol

https://x.com/alexanderbochan?s=21
Watch the pinned tweet if u care. I played a particular song when boomer was put down and this is their response.

>>33265422
He sounds like a dickhead, but being obease is unhealthy.
Just find someone better to associate with.

>>33265445
its only overweight

>>33265471
Same thing to me.
>t. 6'3" male who's 40lbs overweight
I'm a fatty too. But I walk several miles 5 days a week and I've been cooking for myself lately. Already lost 5lbs.

She went to the same place two years ago where her and I went on one of our first dates. I think it may have been our second or third date. We went to the park, went out to the cliffs and placed a blanket down among the rocks and listened to waves lapse back and forth. The sound of the ocean, the cool gentle breeze, when she told me she wanted to come with me to Japan. We held each other in each other's arms, with smiles strewn upon our faces, eyes closed here and there. She brought beers. Books. It was one of the happiest moments of my life. I never felt more loved, except for maybe when I was a child.

I found her social media. She went to the bottom of the cliffs, looking up at where we once sat and talked life plans. I had to be sure. So I went on my own too. I went down to the rocks the other day. I went up to the cliffs. I listened to the ocean waves.

I still think of you too, wherever you are. I hope you're happy. The thought of you being happy makes me happy. It's all I could ask for.

I really shouldn't crave attention as much as I do but I can't help it. I do the most depraved things, dressing up girly just to get attention from strange men so they buy me things. I don't like craving so much attention.

Thinking about hanging myself. I think I'm going to set a date for it and learn the right way to tie the knot. I don't have hope that I'm going to get better and I don't want to deal with this shit anymore.

>>33262277
I found out who she was! Ashton Faye! How you gonna throw out a whole relationship for some below average hoe? Apparently he beat it to her fully clothed and tuned in to her OF livestreams with other gooners. So funny

They said it like 4-5 times just tonight. Today is the last day on earth. Tomorrow is the day, wal mart fucking said so. This is on them if it isn't.

TATIANA IS FUCKIN COMIN

>>33265645
You should think about shooting yourself instead. Hanging yourself is fucking painful as fuck and you'll bail on it the second you feel the tiniest bit of pressure on your neck.

A shotgun is like $150 bucks and you don't even have a wait period for one. Go to a gun show and you don't even have to do a background check. You can blow your brains out in the fucking parking lot.

>>33265703
I can't get a gun in the state I live in or any nearby states. I know hanging is painful but after a few minutes I'll stop caring. I've read about people getting drunk with the rope already tightened around them so they hang when they pass out. I'm considering something like that.

>>33265716
If you really think the pain of slowly hanging is a problem, then you clearly haven't put any real thought or effort into this. No, I will not elaborate further. Just go on living dude

>>33265729
I've thought about this and have been putting it off for over a decade. People have been hanging themselves for thousands of years. I just need to tie it right and pick the right spot and even if I regret the instant I feel pressure it'll be too late and I'll be done with this shit.

>>33265741
>over a decade
>still doesn't know how to tie the easiest knot in the world
>still thinks being hanged will be a grueling ordeal
Yeah mate, you just need a proper hobby

>>33265764
You have to be 18 to post here, please wait until summer is over before posting again so you can go back to school and practice your reading comprehension.

>>33265770
You're the teenage retard nigger who whines about longing for hanging, but for the pain. You come up with stupid cockamamie ideas like blacking out drunk already in the noose. The truth is you have no historical or literal literacy, elsewise you'd have long ago heard of the long drop. I know you're just a half-assed troll so fuck you

>>33265716
1” diameter black iron about 1’ paired with 3/4’ 2’+ and an end cap with a screw tapped in should get u what you’re looking for. Slug is the way to go. Better off calling some plumbing warehouses for seamless but just know that u do risk it blowing apart and not operating correctly. The shrapnel can blow your hand off as the psi rating is more than 10x lower than standards of common shotguns. From the looks of it people usually get some usage out of it before it “malfunctions”.

>>33265797
*3/4”

>>33262774
I was told she had a boyfriend and THEN wrote a ten thousand word essay that's mostly rambling on why we would be perfect for each other and how her ex-fiance doesn't deserve her for breaking off their engagement and that if we had been dating we would've been married in our 20s instead of pushing 40 and in shitty relationships. I said all my troubles in the world melt away when I'm with her and it makes me actually feel happy for once. I then asked how long she was going to wait for her boyfriend to get his shit together--a year? Five years? Maybe never and she'll spend the rest of her life at arms length and only getting together when he feels like it?

The only thing I didn't do was get shitty and insult her or call her names, but I still feel like I'm going to wind up on a watchlist for this.

I think even with all of the weight I've lost this year and how much better I look and feel, I still don't want to date or attempt to even have sex. I think I'm becoming more and more comfortable with the fact that I honestly don't care at fucking all. I think about trying to navigate modern dating and it all fucking sucks.

The apps suck; I suck at messaging on them, I'm awkward on them, most women on there fill out fucking nothing (when I try to put in effort it's never reciprocated) or I share nothing in common with them and I can't fake enthusiasm about it in an attempt to break the ice. Never mind the planning of an actual date, if I would even make it that far without someone just ghosting or cancelling last minute. I'm also boring my hobbies are shooting, gym a couple times during the week and videogames. Why introduce a chaotic element into it just so they can ruin my habits, all for what? Maybe some intimacy and/or sex? I can jerk off at home for free and get that urge out of my system in a few minutes. I'm below average in that department anyway so it's not like I'm going to wow anyone. Not interested in fucking prostitutes so traveling overseas for that kind of shit is just not worth the money for me in any capacity.

I think genuinely I just can't connect with others on a romantic level. Even on a platonic level I don't think I could be friends more than on a surface level with a chick. That's fine though, I enjoy doing my own thing I just wish I had a better way to break up the monotony sometimes.

I'm a stranger to the things that make me feel good.

Such fucking disrespect from me
I actually need to just straight up die I don't even deserve to live

>>33254845 (OP)
So, for some reason, I've never actually dated anyone who was insecure. It's weird, right? Supposedly they're everywhere but I haven't personally gotten involved with any.

Anyway, so I was thinking. It would be kinda funny if I DID get involved with one because I would be really direct with them about it. As soon as I noticed insecurity behavior (and I will recognize it quickly), I would just be like "Oh, feeling insecure/or jealous are you?" and kinda tease them about it. It would be fun.

I just let go from a temp to hire research type job after working there for two months. I'm 35, and it was paying $18/hr, I'm not sure how much I would've been paid if I got hired on anyway. I have a natural tendency for my head to be in the clouds and make mistakes left and right, plus I never feel fully rested in the morning no matter how much sleep I get the night before.

I'm really worried about myself, it's not just about this job but the fact that the only types of jobs I've worked at, felt competent enough at, and enjoyed were routine QC or QA lab tech jobs that paid between $18 and $22 an hour. And I wasted $160k of my parent's money for an engineering degree at this fancy, private university to obtain these types of jobs when I could've just graduated high school and earned the same payrates later on.

My dad died last October and my mom is in her seventies, but still chooses to work her job with no plans on retiring. I just wish I knew back then when I studied in high school and college that getting passing grades doesn't necessarily mean you can hold onto a basic job.

For nearly 30 years, I've thought if I were to ever become a parent (something I didn't even think would be possible), that my kid(s) would be ashamed of me. But now I've been changing a lot. I've been exploring religion. And I can't stop thinking about wanting to have a family now. And I don't know what to do because my current gf is an absolute no on kids.

>>33265881
You need to stop, don't go down this path. Religion is not going to make you a respectable person. Please, you don't need to fall into that rabbit hole.

>>33254845 (OP)

>be 30 year old autist
>spent most of my life until this point on autopilot in a dissociated haze
>moved away from hometown with my parents
>slowly make improvements in my life, cut out gluten, started lifting, got a fresh start in a new room that i was able to properly curate.
>almost no negative influences from my childhood
>i start to wake up more, realize i can't remember most of my life at all.
>now in present day i had to go back to my hometown with my mom to help clear out the house and do rennovations
>33 years old now
>begin to rapidly regress and dissociate again. constant bickering is draining me emotionally to the point where doing even basic things feels like wading through mud
>i'm losing time again, i can't exercise anymore, my cognition is losing focus and reactivity is going up.

i look like shit now. the dark circles under my eyes are very noticable and i will lose hours of time.

i'm tired but i don't want to go back to sleep again.... i don't want to lose more years.

>>33254845 (OP)
I found a girl that is interested in me sexually and I think she might be fucking insane

>lost only friend
>now starting over again with another person
>texting is painful and hard and I never seem to say the right things
Man, life is not easy for people like us. I wish I just knew all the shit I'm supposed to say and do like a normal person.

>>33265921
I'm not expecting religion to make me respectable. I plan on doing that myself but I've found myself drawn to religion as well.

>>33261914
I asked her out, 100% directly with zero sugar coating it. She started to stammer out a reply about she doesn't know and before she could finish, I told her I've liked her for a long time and that I think she likes me too in the way she looks at me and talks with me, which made her look away and start to blush.

I went on and said we deserve each other and she tried to tell me enough, but I kept on and brought up a time when she had scooted up right next to me while we were sitting side by side and leaned into me saying she was tired. She then got pretty flustered and started to cry a bit before she walked away telling me to stop again.

I haven't got a reply yet and I don't know how to interpret it. Either things have gone incredibly wrong or I woke something up inside she had been trying to repress.

>>33265871
U seem confused

Genuinely, I want to believe I'm a good person, but maybe I'm not. When someone tries to make me laugh I start to understand how fucked up I feel because it makes me emotional that someone cares enough to cheer me up. I started thinking I'm acting like a victim, but maybe I'm just a product of my environment. I wish I had a partner who was successful, guided me through my emotions and taught me about everything, not out of control but out of love, of course they'd be flawed in their own way. My life has no structure and I feel I'm desperate and surviving until I have that one person I can rely on. I chase no empty dreams, but when you understand what the universe is you wouldn't ask for less. I need more friends in my life that don't drain my energy because they're bored, I attract lost people.

>>33254845 (OP)
>no job
>no prospects
>tranny
>no home, living in trailer
>undying optimism about the future
cope

>>33266243
Why do you list being a tranny as a negative aspect of your life when that's entirely a choice?

waiting to die was easier than trying to live

>>33266288
Who needs ease? My suffering has purpose now.

I want my ex to miss me
I want to get money but working is exhausting
Fuck you pam dirty promiscuous whore i want her to cry for me

>>33265145
There's nothing of the sort. I got ghosted by her.

I found an app that shows me what it would look like if my celeb crush and I had a baby and it makes me sad. Ive only ever had eyes for him.

>>33266288
Same, same.
I got no time now, a lot of headaches, and there's never enough time. Dying is easy, living is hard.

what if my heart wont recover?

>>33266393
I promise it will.

dude, i didn't respond to most of your messages because you either responded to me in a weird ass way or i was too tired to talk to anyone that weren't my best friends. i come home from work tired and drained and the only time i do get to have time for myself, you bitch and moan about how i don't respond to your messages. you behave like you're my gf and it's weird as hell that you get clearly frustrated when i don't respond and hang out with my friends.

you get mad that i joked to our mutuals about it because i'm trying my best to see the humor in the way you behave and then get more upset when i jokingly made a snore sound when you played your religious radio.

i don't know why i even waited for so long to tell you to fuck off, but then again if I did, you'd cry about me "being fake as fuck" or some other dumb shit rather than reflecting on how your behavior comes off as and who/how you should be joking with people.

But hey, me looking out for you when others genuinely shit talked you or treated you like shit meant nothing and me not responding to your messages and snoring over something silly was enough to get you to take your ball and go home. alright buddy

I'm sick of my bf always spying on me I can't do shit around here without him poking his head in even at like 3am I wanna go rip a huge fart and suddenly he's right behind me. Goddamn I'll do it in bed next time

>>33266509
why is he spying on you so much?

>>33265142
>She still checks my pictures out

how can you know?

Fuck I hate my company and every motherfucker working in it. They can all go fuck themselves.
I hate how much of a cynic it's making me, I'm looking for something new and already subconsciously assuming that every other place will be as soul draining as this one.
I'm aware that part of the problem lies with me. I have trouble focusing and motivating myself regularly, but right now I couldn't give less of a fuck and it's hard to make myself work on those problems, when the reward will just be working a job I dislike just a little more efficient.
God it's making me miserable.

I just want to be happy, don't even care about making a career at the moment, as long as I can afford my day to day life and save up some money for roadtrips and shit. I really don't want to move from this town, but the job market isn't too good here, because it's rather small.

I just got the results of my written exam and it's the 2nd (technically third) time I failed it. This time it hurts a lot because I was sure I would have passed it. I don't know what to do anymore, maybe I should just kill myself.

I’m not really sure what I need to do to make sure these squatters are removed from my house. I provided evidence of multiple identities posing as the same people to two different police stations and they tell me that it’s insufficient. They try to pretend that there’s something wrong with my mental state instead of addressing the reality of my situation.

I provided more than enough evidence to deputy Thorne and he told me that it was insufficient and that I should remove myself from the property if I’m worried about it. How the fuck is this real?

My life and soul is just being rotted away because there is no form of law enforcement that is willing to help.

How the fuck can deputy Thorne evaluate all the information and pictures and videos I provided and call it insufficient? How can he not see the problem here? How the fuck does he have a badge?

I have criminals in my house who I can’t comprehend being my parents and the police remain useless. They have wrote me three tickets recently and they removed me from my house to put me into a mental hospital instead of doing what actually makes sense. How can they be this stupid and fucked up?

My mental health has gotten so fucked up since January 2023 because police are stupid pieces of shit.

Can the police finally exhibit some competence so that I can have somewhat of a future? This is fucked up and wrong.

Nobody should ever have to stay this strong. How fucked I’ve been by the world. You’re leaving me to rot. I am mentally rotting because of u.

U took an oath. Justice for all. Do u really not know what u are doing or are u just a corrupt piece of shit?

When is it my turn to have a life, deputy Thorne? How much longer must I battle demons in every direction? When do I get to be treated as anyone else would?

I’ve been in a constant state of suffering for 30 months now. This is more than enough to kill most people. I don’t want to suffer anymore and it seems as suicide is the only way to stop suffering. Are u going to leave me to suffer or are u going to do your fucking job, Mr Thorne?

I’ve been suffering for much longer than 30 months but that’s when things got really bad. I should be able to depend on u for addressing this properly but u choose not to. What the fuck is wrong with u?

U could never begin to imagine what it takes for me to keep myself together. I’ve told u so many times in my notepad that I am on a decline regarding the state of my mental health. Always have been. Nothing is going to change this until I receive actual help. Not these fucked up doctors who play head games with me. I need to u address the fucking criminals now. I stopped driving drunk a very long time ago. Get the fuck over it. JUSTICE FOR ALL. It was too late for u to implement justice as soon as I got back to the house after driving drunk. U can’t just use psychotic cult members against me for years on end after they already abused me since childhood because you’re mad about how I used to live my life. Can u? I hope reality hits u like a ton of bricks.

Stupid God damn worthless fucking piece of shit. Better address me with respect. U could never do what I do.

U would kill yourself before u could even deal with a portion of the shit that I’ve been thru alone. No doubt about it.

I am having very dark thoughts because or the criminals inside my house and Mr Thorne’s absolute absence of competence. The “algorithm” on my phone does what it can to drive what remains of my sanity to the dirt while all I can do is refer to it for better understanding. Strangers running skits on me every day just fucking with me. What the fuck is wrong with this whole world?

Just because I’ve been fucked and abused since childhood doesn’t mean that I don’t deserve a chance.

So my money is going towards building a slamfire shotgun and I am going to use it on myself if u keep refusing to do your job, Mr Thorne. This bullshit has gone on long enough.

I shouldn’t be waiting for simple decency any longer. I should have been helped before that bitch violated me in my sleep last August but federal agents seem to want this to fester as bad as it can.

To my stalkers, sorry I can never entertain your desires. Fucked up cultists ignored by fucked up police has wrecked my mental health so badly that it’s too difficult to picture myself involving myself in relationships the way I used to. They not only did everything possible to fuck my head up after staying strong as I could for years but I believe they even fucked my face while I was sleeping as well. Not only to make me suffer but probably to make me look like I’m the one committing the crimes that they are instead. That’s why they falsified that last paternity/maternity test thru a third party. ANYTHING TO CAUSE DAMAGE AND COVER THEIR TRACKS.

I used to be a much better looking dude 12 years ago but Tammy decided to let some piece of shit pretend to be her and she drugged me while I was sleeping and I was gnashing at the teeth and couldn’t wake up until my face got all fucked up and smooshed.

>>33266924
Pair this up with my scoliosis and it shouldn’t be any surprise that I was constantly choking on my own phlegm 24/7

Based on some posts that spooked me 30 months ago it seems as tho there was a cctv camera in my room so someone saw what was happening to me and for some reason they just let it happen.

>>33266934
So either it was darknet exploitive hackers watching or corrupt federal agents.

>>33266521
She shows up in the list
If I upload multiple pics she checks all of them, something some people won't do, they only check the first one

Im scamming people into becoming more intelligent!

Imagine most of the reason for certain things in your life, like your diet, being dictated by where and who you were born to.
Why is life just RNG at its core?

>>33265366
I feel that.
Cant really control who you love and when you are too scared to shoot your shot and then she is out of reach, oof.
You ought to shoot next time, cause this pussy shit is tragic.
Not to be a dick, but you couldve known for certain now it's gonna fuck with you every so often when you are down, I know I have that some times.
But you'll be alright dude, you have the capacity to love and are quite the romantic fag xD
Chicks dig that, but they cant dig you unless you go for it.

Let this motivate you for the next girl you crush on.

It's only Tuesday, you've got plenty more days in the week to find another pretty girl to fall for.

>>33267254
>too scared to shoot your shot
Oh I did last year. Messed it up but she wasn't truly interested anyway.
>motivate you for the next girl you crush on
I'm just going to focus on self improvement for the next year and then find social activities like cooking classes and running groups.

>>33267365
Fair enough, best of luck with that.
How you feelin today tho?

>>33267458
Much better. I got some deep sleep last night and went for my usual morning walk. Going to walk more when I get home. With the miles I put on I easily drop 2lbs a week and that's not water weight.
I was doing the same last year but then ran into a major change in my life and went back to drinking heavily for a few months. Now I just walk.

Every Tammy who played a part in this should be burned alive. If they were made a proper example of the consequences that witches could potentially face for doing this then maybe witches would stop fucking around. The Dereks seem rather spineless for letting this happen too. Someone knows more about their crimes than I do I believe so I’ll leave that up to u to provide an opinion on. No I didn’t try to burn my Grandma alive. I was worried that someone else was going to because of a 4chan post as well as a concern of synchronicity regarding a story she told me several times about a family member being burned alive. I asked “Tammy” if she was home that morning. I think she had just got off the phone with my “aunt” and she said “no, she’s going to the doctor”. I knew that nobody would take my concern seriously so I took matters into my own hands. Grandma left her purse inside of the house while she was at the doctor and I gave it to “Cameron” after the house fire was extinguished. Only other things I retrieved from the house was a bag of power tools and pictures. I kept the pictures in my car briefly and then removed them and stuffed them underneath the freezing water in the pond. I thought that I was supposed to sacrifice myself for what I thought was a normal family because of what George Lopez said that morning. Then Derek told me not to talk to police so that made me confused.

They convinced u that boxing me in was appropriate because they intentionally misrepresented what I was saying while spot trading right?

Do u actually believe that deserve to be in prison right now for burning a house down? Are u fucking stupid?

Here’s a scenario to contemplate. U just drank 3 beers. U are a highly competent driver, above average. You’re approaching a yellow light in the right hand lane going about five mph over speed limit at 50 mph. Some dumbass pulls out in front of u far too late for u to avoid a collision. The ground is also somewhat slick but u are able to slow your car down as much as possible. The abs is working and your vehicle doesn’t even crash but more so scrunches into the back of a weak hatchback, not even breaking any glass. Just a dent roughly the size of a basketball. U pull into a neighborhood really fast and return within seconds. Someone is already helping the stupid asshole and if u approach them then u are going to go to jail for a dui. So u try to use the notepad inside your phone to make confessions to elite members of society while rats peer in and use everything u type against u. They wait outside the pizza shop u like next to another car with a message thats meant to pull your heartstrings more for someone u find special. U get reminders from people with shit character everywhere u go. They expect u to confess about it because they want a tortured slave to live beneath rock bottom. And then your supposed to look at strangers in the eye as if u don’t hate their guts. Wut do?

I matched with a guy exactly like my boyfriend on a dating site, same ethnicity, same interests and everything. Almost cheated then had a what the fuck am I doing moment. And I realized that I need to just stay where I am. I got what the universe is deciding to send me and I like what they sent me. Why am I being so greedy? I'm going to kiss his ass for a whole week in penance.

But wait! There’s more! U finally pray one evening for the first time in your life telling God that u think you’re ready to meet the one. Next day u find her online and she’s perfect. U feel a way u haven’t since u were a kid. Profile clearly indicates she’s local and two years younger than yourself. Turns out that they were trying to trick u into developing attraction to kids. U had no idea and never expected anyone to do something fucked up like this. To take advantage of someone that kind of way. Then you’re begging for an explanation for years on end as to why u can’t receive the same justice that anyone else would if they’re “family” was physically and psychologically torturing them. All u get are hiding rats who indirectly imply you’re a pedophile and u deserve it. They infect the algorithm and gaslight u 24/7 as u search for hope and an explanation. They try to program u into being more fucked up than u even ended up before this all happens at the same location they gaslight u. U dedicate all your heart into who u think is just one woman but apparently kids as well but they don’t want it so u move on. U don’t see any promise in investing into someone without their virginity. Well fuck dude they all lose it by the time they’re 18. So u look elsewhere sitting on a financial investment u expect to turn into a fortune eventually. That gives u some time. U find a 16 year old on instagram who u see potential in. They watch u jack off twice thru the camera on your phone. Then the account lowers the age from 16 to 15 after the fact. You’re confused. U get hired at a new job and your boss that u are having your second conversation with hints at the subject because they know the specific details. They treat u like a burden on society. Everyone does. All because of this? Are u fucking serious?

Then people are like “no buddy we know how fucked up u really are” because your stoned and zoned out scrolling instagram with your hand on your cock one day. The one’s controlling the “algorithm” decide to put a picture of a little boy in front of u while this is happening. Eventually u snap out of it wondering “haha the fuck just happened?” years later wondering if they also used 5g frequencies that helped u zone out at the perfect time. With a picture of an orange next to the little boy u have this witch inside the house being handled by someone, following orders and telling lies. The witch starts placing an orange on the kitchen counter in front of u every day now when there was never an orange there before. U leave the mental hospital to walk around with “Derek” and see some guy under the bridge looking at u with some serious and disturbed looking concern after his little boy had just bent over as soon as u approached. Like they’re using their kids to bait people who aren’t actually even fucked up. What’s up with that shit, huh?

And people will use everything from your private notes against u but never use anything from them to help u. They just want u to put yourself in a position that leaves u in danger. They want perhaps the best example of anti nwo (me) to set bad examples. Like you’re choosing a future for your kids to be backed into a corner where they are damned either way. Pretend it’s about making me trust my government when u know that’s a bad idea. Teach your kids to trust the government and watch how fucked yo their lives end up because of your stubborn ignorance.

U make worthless look honorable. And then I’m supposed to sympathize after they press a button then make your body drop from that covid shot after u told people who didn’t get one themselves that they were a selfish detriment? Ok. You’re just mad that someone u hate makes the world a better place while u turn it into shit.

So again I ask, why the fuck are those child abusing criminals still inside of my house?

Honestly, what's more damaging? An hour gooning or ten hours doomscrolling? Sometimes I think I should let my body take control more instead of listening to my amxious brain every time. Our souls are tard wrangling our minds and bodies 24/7, it's a thankless job with no vacations. Anime tiddies though, activate those neurons son!

>>33268483
>>33268454
>>33268513
Kill yourself worthless schizo trash

I wish I could just let it out and cry again. Even when I'm alone my instincts tell me to bottle it up and lock it up, which isn't healthy man.

>Last family member doesn't want anything to do with me.
I have no irl friends and no family now. I'm truly alone. It's freeing in a way, but also hurts. It's my duty as the last if my name to carry it into a new generation of love and acceptance. I never wanted this burden but it's mine alone to bare.

>>33268598
Squawwwk! D:<

How do you guys come to terms with hair loss and the fact that one day you'll be bald? I got two bald spots on the top of my head now... Feels like I'm losing something essential to me and I can't stop it.

If normie isn’t going to send a tip to the fbi regarding the crimes being committed against me then why the fuck is normie still spying on me?

I'M TIRE OF MYSELF NOT WORKING BECAUSE NOTHING IS WORKING EVEN ME! Nothing ever works out and life is so underwhelming. I wish my life wasn't such a blur. Can't remember shit.

Literally no one cares. Not my soulmate, my friends, family, or the public. Everyone says this shit when they are sad but I'm the only person in the world that can actually say it and have it be true.

My gf i asking me these job interview like questions and it really pisses me off.

I want to be lobotomized.

She said she would find someone for me so I wouldn't be lonely anymore.

Dude the more u let any loaf linger around the more likely it is that people will just be distracted and be fooled to believe that’s what this is about. Stop letting them spy on me.

Me gusta una chica desde hace ya unos años, pero no se si debería declararme o no, no se si pudieran hablarle por insta de mi parte, la verdad me da pena, ella es tan dulce conmigo pero siento que si le digo cambiara todo, por favor si

I understand the guy from Stanley steamer was all concerned because women make men go crazy. Cool, whatever. Stop giving them attention regarding my life. I’m dealing with CRIMINALS inside of MY HOUSE and that’s all that fucking matters here. All this stupid focus on women revolves around me doesn’t fucking matter and the more they distract the more they prevent me from receiving JUSTICE against CRIMINALS inside of MY HOUSE. U stupid FUCK!

briana_balboaf
su Instagram

I need help and fucking morons are trying to turn my life into a psychotic, cucked romantic comedy or some shit. SEND A TIP TO THE FBI OR STOP FUCKING TALKING ABOUT ME. I NEED HELP.

I've been liking a girl for a few years now, but I don't know whether to confess it or not. I don't know if you could talk to her on Instagram for me. Honestly, I feel sorry for her. She's very sweet to me, but I feel like if I tell her, everything will change. Please.
Her Instagram is briana_balboaf
Tell her something like, "Titi secretly loves you" or something like that.

Dude I determined that these bitches don’t give a fuck about me a long time ago. Idgaf either. I don’t need a God damn bitch in my life and I want them to stay the fuck away because of what u did to me. Whoever controls the algorithm is a twisted, fucked up piece of shit who deserves nothing but pain and suffering. Stop imposing the idea of having any woman in my life on me. I need u to remove these pieces of shit from my house immediately. Enough is enough. U have all the evidence u need. Stop wasting my fucking time.

Yes I get it. The predator who follows me is implying that bad eyesight isn’t a valid excuse for all of their accusations because they just showed me a few pictures of a kid and I looked at the pictures for more than one second. Can someone just fucking end this individual already? They’re not valid they’re a scumbag piece of shit.

I see small images of her around me
Kind of sad since she didn't think much of me

>>33269160
U take pride in following people around trying to rage bait?

Having OCD around thinking God is punishing you for doing certain things is so exhausting. I don't even believe in a God that would do that but my irrational mind convinces me it's true.

>>33269278
If God punishes people while they are on earth then why do so many people get away with doing bad things? God created heaven and earth and loves heaven enough to protect it from bad people entering. Why would God waste their time throwing variables into a lifelong shit test made by the devil? That doesn’t make very much sense does it?

Either demons or the devil seemingly operate against me with the “algorithm” and I’m forced to address it far longer than I would have liked to because law enforcement STILL hasn’t removed these demons from my house.

Thank you for the explosions, boys~

>>33254845 (OP)
Glad these threads are still up even though I don't compulsively browse here anymore (Don't Forget!). Man I just want to talk about how much I loathe the education system. Teachers are not paid enough, though I don't really care. I do care however when that low pay translates to not attracting intelligent or competent teachers. All of my teachers were women. Women, or bitter old women. I'm just starting to remember and piece together so many of the things I wanted to do as a kid, like be a video game tester or developer and the people saying it's not feasible were always the women. Specifically some bitch shrink my mom sent me to because I was acting out in class (you wouldn't believe it but get this, it was because my dad was always away at work and not interested in spending time with me that lead to a lack of a real male role model that contributed to my shortcomings in school). I remember how she said that just wasn't an option while I wasted her time not telling her anything and turning our expensive "therapy" session into board game time. Or that fat elementary school teacher who was pregnant who accused me of trying to trip her because I put my feet out at the wrong time. Just reading about how much women hate each other, like this Reddit post that went in detail on how this guys wife had terrible life altering plastic surgery because her hideous sisters want to see her fail because they didn't make it. It makes me sick. So much of my later success in school and life was because I finally had a positive male role model and not some wishy washy woman who couldn't keep it together. I don't hate women. I think they're fine, and they complete us as destined by our creator. But man, the mind games, the competitiveness, the weak minded attitude (look how cute I am) and thing of pray shit that influences their choices in life makes me want to put my head through my wall. Especially when it's crushing my dreams as a kid and ruining what they can't have.

>>33254845 (OP)
Man I fucking hate videogamedunkey. I just so happened to stumble upon one of his videos from almost ten years ago and it's the exact same jokes and formula used in his new videos. And every video
>bap
>knack II
>huhhh like this sorta typa talk accent kinda thing
>partially serious segment abruptly ended by shitty callback joke
It's slop. It gets millions of views, and people laud him as a comedy genius and as a reputable critic of video games. The new Mario Kart, which is the exact same game as the last one with a few new extra features except with a larger price tag and new system needed to play it, has a review video on his channel. It's a "masterpiece". It's so low brow and low effort yet people will confidently scoff and push their glasses up when you dare make fun of their haute video game """essays""". Eugh.

>>33268375
Why are women like this?

>>33270022
Men are too. 4chan just attracts shit people.

>>33268568
Stop fighting the anxious thoughts and just admit you are scared and then talk to yourself as a friend would
>a couple beers on a Tuesday dont hurt bro, your job's easy anyway
or some stupid careless shit like that.

Doing careless shit will teach you 2 things
>it isnt as big as you think
and
>your anxiety is a wimpy bitch that you can control
Obviously doesnt work immediately, but if you do it every so often and some point it should click in your mind.

Look up exposure therapy.

>>33270052
thanks, I thought I was a good guy, but here you are calling me shit.
Asshole!

>>33270001
tells you all you need to know about how easy it is to become a content creator.

I once created a thread here asking for advice on a made up subject that was a bit outlandish and no one called it a larp or a bait
It was outlandish but had no ragebait, racebait, incelbait or any flame content into it, it was a made up guy in a technical problem basically
I wonder why I did that, I don't even like that much when people (you) me, I get a bit anxious when I see too many replies to any of my comments even.

>>33262026
We were messaging again yesterday, she came back in the early morning
Some things returned to good old norms - sending pics, going back to voice messaging
But I'm still picking up the feeling that she doesnt feel the same way I do despite that and I just need to deal with it now
Full transparency so I can move on or move forward is what its gonna take and I'm stalling because I feel like I know the answer

>>33268763
Finasteride and minoxidil
Should at least be able to halt the progression if not bring it back a little
Going through the same myself, just about to start. The hairline receding a bit isn't too bad, it's right in front of your face you get time to get used to it. But the first time you spot the bald spot coming in it fucks you up because it's something you don't normally see yourself

Anyway if it doesnt work then fuck it, same place we started, will just have to commit to the cueball cope

>>33254845 (OP)
Gas the Kikes Now

How to stop being or feeling lonely?
Right now im sorta alright cause I talked to people online, but I am still alone once I hop off.
So how do I either stop being a pussy or start making friends?
I heard about joining clubs n shit, but I always feel rejection and when I do it is almost impossible to stick around.
I'll either isolate myself or get angry and then rejected cause I got angry.
>oh wow you are so weirdly aggressive against the guy we all like who is trying to dominate you by humiliating you etc.
Literally every time there is somebody who fucks with me till I snap.

it got so bad I expect it and really Im trying to push through that learned aggressive response.

p.s. rarely women do the same thing but I honestly dont feel bad when they do.
Unless I like them.

This case number should include all of the evidence I provided to deputy Thorne.

I feel like a total weirdo stalking this one guy's twitter after he somewhat ghosted me after a week of us friending each other, talking and hitting it off for hours on end each day and him even calling me his best friend
I just want my friend back but he wont reply back to my discord messages anymore

>>33256554
Everything is fake and gay
Relativize…

>>33257717
Give up trying
Trying anything
Just accept the moment, moment by moment
Anything that shows up in consciouness, accept it and let it be
As long as it’s here and now and you’re not trying to change or do anything

>>33257732
Read Rumi

>>33257746
I sure hope they do
You sound like a liability to america, not an asset

>>33258094
They’re just desperate
You just crossed their minimal threshold
Pump and dump with abandon

>>33258645
> Fighting/supporting Iran means deaths to all gay people, it's fighting for little girls to be married to old men. It's fighting for the subjection of women and human rights.
Godly and survival pilled
While fighting for israel is suicidal and gay

>>33259746
I used to be a listener on 7cups
It’s sacred work
God bless you and may you find a willing ear

Stop appearing in my dreams fren

Thought men were misogynistic and evil. Then I lost my virginity and realized that it’s literally women’s fault. I folded so easily for this guy it was sickening. :/ Karma is that I still miss him. Coming to this website makes me hate being a woman. I’m flirtatious instead of demure or polite. I’m brash instead of confident. I’m shrill and insecure when I’m stressed. I’ve become my mother in so many ways it makes me feel like screaming.

Thinking about him calms me down. Not him, specifically, but remembering how badly I fucked it up.

>>33270860
At least you are self aware, which means you can apologize for it and mean it.

I dont think most people realize how the mindset you have against an "enemy" spills over to your loved ones as in they suffer the same wrath.
It takes a strong woman or man to admit their fault and that is key to a good relationship.
As long as you dont cross the line i.e. cheating, a Guy will likely forgive you.
I know I have.

>>33270981
I can feel thankful (??) in a way for some of what my mom put me through— I would never cheat. My mom was a cheater, and made myself and my siblings lie to her boyfriends for her. We were children. Infidelity is seriously sickening. It’s insecurity that feeds it, turns the act of betrayal into a thrill.

Yeah, I try to be accountable. I know that my reactions can have a ripple effect, and I try to keep my emotions under check. It’s easier now that I’m at a new job. Less stress.

>>33270981
Also I wish my relationship with this guy could’ve grown to that point?? But when started sexting immediately and I just jumped right in. I was tired of waiting, scared of commitment, felt his job would make a relationship too messy or complicated—- and I thought it wouldn’t matter. It was a bucket list item. Popping the cherry.

And by the time I realized how badly I’d completely wronged myself, I knew I had already lost his respect and trust, if I ever had any chance of earning it. And I emotionally freaked out. It wasn’t even like. A normal situation.

Really sucked too, because for a moment, I just felt. So calm. I felt like the person I am under all the panic and stress. Just calm and steady. I miss that.

>>33270082
Yeah, I’m here too.

>>33261230
You lack openmindedness, empathy and imagination

Woot

>>33271191
Indeed.

Don't kys

>>33265422
This is still affecting me. More things have happened since then, and I just feel useless. Learning what people say and think about you behind your back is just crushing me. I haven’t eaten in about two days now. I have an excuse to keep going because I need to fast for a blood test.

>>33254845 (OP)
I wish some choices didn't have consequences. TL;DR - inhibitions strike again.
>Go to a fast food joint on the way to a gig
>Pretty cute asiatic chiquita takes my order
>Single patty burger meal, nothing crazy
>Pick up meal after hearing a flurry of spanish and my order mentioned several times
>Hunch.png
>Sit down and unwrap the sandwich
>It's a double patty
This has happened a few times before at different places and with fries sizes, but it felt kinda nice to be hit on by a cute chick like her instead of the usual types who work in the back. And my autism roleplays in my head might have actually gotten me somewhere, if it weren't for the fact that
>I'm selectively racist (I don't mind being friends, but I'm not having mixed babies)
>Being hispanic, the odds of her being crazy is high
>Being hispanic, the guy(s) crushing on her are likely crazy AND homicidal
Sadly, my resolve (and virginity) remains intact in the face of could have been an eye-opening one-nighter.

>fell asleep after work again
>bad sleep and morning fatigue again
i hate this cycle. i always feel like shit because of it.

>>33271577
I don't normally advocate for drug abuse, but have you tried having coffee late in the work day so you're wired longer or taking night time cough medicine or melatonin for passing out easier? Exercise hypothetically gets you properly tired and is the healthiest option, but sometimes it has the opposite effect and gets you wired.

I want to GOON for hours but porn is so icky... If i think of gf I cum in less than 30 seconds... i just want to feel good

>>33271594
I already drink caffeine. Having it before work, during work, or after work hasn't made much of a difference. It might keep me going for a few hours but once the caffeine crash sets in, I can't fight it.
I've tried melatonin before, it worked a few years ago. But the when I tried it recently, my eyes and face felt so heavy and tired, but my head was still wide awake. It was like being painfully fatigued but not sleepy, so I just laid in bed feeling really disorented for hours.
I want to say it comes down to habit. Maybe if I just lay in bed even when I'm not tired, eventually my body will adjust?

>>33271635
u just need to pull an allnighter to fix ur sleeping schedule

>>33271648
I'm not a teenager anymore. Even being awake for 10 hours makes me irritably tired. I could try to force it but it would fuck me up pretty bad.
Maybe I should get a check up...

>>33271674
itd only mess u up for one and a half day and then it'll fix the issue, dont be a pussy

>>33271695
What about circadian rhythm? It can't honestly reset after one or two days can it

>>33271729
idk what that is, i think ur overcomplicating things, why not give it a try first before simply dismissing it? getting a medical check up can be expensive and often unhelpful anyways

>>33271738
I don't like the feeling of my brain melting while I work

>>33271754
can’t u do it on the weekend then?

>>33271777
Maybe

>>33254845 (OP)
https://youtu.be/fMrpVDYZCbU?si=TCQa6EM7ta2GuqJP

one of my online buds just shaved the balding hair and he looks so fuckin' cool now
proud of that nigga

>>33270855
Oh stop?
Oh. Ok. I'll try and have other adventures.

The chase I was talking about isn't your chase. Mine has a cereal brand in his last name.

You know I bet one day all those people snickering at how much of a faggot temper tantrum bitch I am, are gonna one day be surprised when I get a hot girlfriend that they can not outsmart my love for her like they usually would. That instead of being like, oh Zach's a dweeb whose just gonna go all apeshit over being a drama queen, THEY'RE GONNA BE LIKE, "OH SHIT THIS GUY EARNED IT!"

>>33271980
No they will not.
Delusions are just de lusions

>>33272026
BULLSHIT MUTHA FUCKA IM GONNA MAKE IT!

>>33271148
Im joking

>>33271051
>>33271073
Yes, what else is there?
Being mad about it just hurts you.
Being sad about it just hurts you.
Being thankful for the hard lesson is all you have and of course not making the same mistakes.
Do what you want for all I care, but you know better, so forgive yourself and try again.
I reckon being open about this will help, it is much harder to start being homest than it is to deal with the flaws and mistakes in silence.
You arent a bad person, just an idiot.

Good luck anon.

I just get so insecure when I see my new girlfriend dress up hot and go out with her friends. She's not even dressing objectively "slut"ily: just a low neckline, little cleavage, sometimes her midriff, occasionally a sexy backless dress at an event.

Maybe it's not even the dress. I think the issue for me is that she has a tattoo of a rose on the small of her back, basically what people would call a tramp stamp. It's in too sexy a place for me, I think. It makes me uncomfortable with the fact people can see that tattoo on her there and look at her in that sensitive area even when we're around. I can't explain it, but it's too stressful almost?

It's a bit too sexual because it naturally attracts people's eyes there. I've tried to gaslight myself into thinking I'm okay with it or okay with the attention and sexual energy it brings, but it's exhausting to always think about it when she goes out with or without me.

I've tried sharing my thoughts with her in the hopes of understanding her perspective. She was open to hearing my thoughts and shared she only got the tattoo because it makes her feel sexy and not because she feels it'll get men to look at her more. I feel better that we spoke a bit about it, but I still feel uncomfortable.

I don't know if this is something I'll get over, or if this is just who I am.

i get erections every time i hug a woman that isn't a family member
its fucking annoying

>>33254845 (OP)
Im 30yo, just found out i have inattentive adhd after struggling with depressive episodes and burnout for years. Nobody who tried to help me ever figured out it might be adhd that causes those other issues. Fucking sucks and I wish I knew 10/15 years ago because it would have helped a lot.
Any other anons with adhd-pi and how do you cope?

When they say “you don’t have to suffer alone” they’re half lying to you. You don’t have to, but it’s much preferred.

>>33272278
Bruh listen, tons of women and simps will gaslight you by trying to call you insecure
A lot can be said between both sides on if she's doing it for external validation and attention or if she's doing it for herself
I feel like you two aren't compatible
Just think of it like you're ideal woman that you feel loved and secure with isn't the type to dress like that when going out with her friends
So aim for a different type of person

>>33270855
You haven't appeared in mine lately Kind Fren
I don't mean to appear in yours
Sorry

>>33272894
It's not you

>>33272281
what’s amazing is how easy it is to get away with this
women are actually really unaware of these things
in high school my best friend (girl) put her head in my lap and didn’t notice how hard I was, or that I was hard when I got up. I know she didn’t notice because we started dating later and when I told her what had happened she said it had never crossed her mind

I love my autistic foid

>>33272693
Thank you. I think you're right, and this tremendous anxiety I've been feeling lately is just me trying to force myself into being comfortable with something I'm naturally not. I've tried to rewire my brain and all that, but it's never worked. I think this is just fundamentally who i am, a dude that is more comfortable with a girl that slightly more comfortable than me.

Thing is that this girl is really amazing and we're compatible in all meaningful ways. The tattoo is singular point of incompatibility, and since I've never been here before, I don't know if it's worth breaking up a great relationship for.

>>33273014
It's almost like not having a penis makes you unaware of what it's like having one.
Crazy how that works.

>Finally had enough, decide I must confess my feelings for one of my coworkers.
>Don't want to do it on the clock but don't really have a chance to do it otherwise.
>Decide to pass her my number and ask to talk after shift when she gets a chance, she's a little reluctant at first but says she will.
>Finally get off after what seems like an eternity, drive home, sit at my desk wondering if she'll follow through.
>Just as I'm about to go to bed, my phone dings with a text message from her asking what's up (I was hoping for a call, but I didn't specify in case she was someone who didn't really do phone conversations).
>Tell her hi, say my message might be a little long so if she needs to sleep or read it later, I understand.
>Spill my heart out to her, like completely and utterly. Say I've liked her for the last year or so and have been meaning to ask her out, but every time I got a good chance to do so at work I always lost my nerve.
>Tell her how wonderful she is and how much I look forward to talking to her every time we work together since I feel like I can say anything and she understands and doesn't find it weird.
>I learned she has a boyfriend already and while that made me pull back, I just can't keep my emotions bottled up and have to let her know.
>Even if she doesn't feel the same way, I hope she knows how special she is and how she makes the world a better place.

It's been two hours and I haven't gotten a reply. I just keep mulling it over in my head if I did the right thing or if it matters at all. Maybe she just blocked me and deleted my message, or maybe she has no idea what to reply back. Maybe she was off doing something else and hasn't even seen it yet. I don't think she'll just drop everything and enter a relationship with me, but I do feel a little better for saying it all.

>>33273021
yes but in our minds, the bulge in our pants is obvious and embarrassing, especially since it changes our posture and gait. I’ve been literally bent forward with my back arched because of a boner and women still haven’t noticed.

I’ve never posted this before, but here’s a screenshot from my texts with a girl I was seeing and I hope it helps you understand that you really should not have done this to yourself

>>33273085
meant for you >>33273062

>>33273085
It is too late anon. The message is out and the damage is done. The only solace I have is that I wouldn't feel better any which way I went.

>>33273105
Yeah but you would've felt the same and hr wouldn't be getting involved

>>33273112
I'm leaving in a few months anyway, this only speeds up the process. But I don't think it'll get to that point, she's not the type to report shit to HR since our HR is absolute shit.

>>33273085
She’s honestly trash for sharing that screenshot. When someone confesses feelings for you, sending screenshots to someone else to make fun of them is actually disgusting behaviour. She doesn’t have to reciprocate, but the decent thing to do is to thank the person for being honest about their feelings, but let them know you only see them as a friend, and then keep the conversation private. If she would do that to this guy, then she’d do the same thing to you.

>>33273258
I think that you should be honest with your partner if someone else approaches you. It’s not right to keep it from them entirely. If someone at work or a friend is pursuing you even when they know you’re in a relationship, your partner should be kept in the know.
But yes, she was being cruel and shared that with me for amusement. She was an actually bad person and she used me and tossed me aside. Started dating another guy without ever dumping me.

>>33272943
Ok good.
Please remain staying out of mine too, it's for the best.

I hope I can say goodbye to you Thursday, but if I can't I'll just leave a message.
I still know we're not friends or anything but it still feels like I'm losing a friend.
It's stupid I know. Writing this out is cathartic.
Maybe it's best I don't see you because now I'm getting slightly emotional writing this out.
I hate my dumb brain

>>33272482

> Fucking sucks and I wish I knew 10/15 years ago because it would have helped a lot.

I've got bad news, knowing about it doesn't really help. Enjoy taking speed, and hold on to your cheeks

>>33273485
No the original poster but stop projecting onto posts anon.

>>33273750
>projecting onto posts
Most of these threads is just that
Sorry, just the nature of not having poster IDs

Adrijus why do you love a BPD child with nose piercings who dated a 28 year old more than the catholic girl who stayed with you for over a year through challenges. How can you fall in love with a child? How can you fall in love with someone within a month? How do you expect this relationship to lead to marriage when you both cheated on your SOs?

>>33274466
kek that is so fooked, what kinda coomer is he?

>>33271164

That's you, not me. In fact, people always comment on my huge imagination and empathy.

>>33270860
You're what real women call a pick-me. You just have shitty qualities, unlike the women I like.