turning 26 this month, here after the post nut clarity preceded by a hour long of goonsesh on rare instagram young titties hit me.
I remember visiting r9k on and off back in 2017, obsessing over rose and being a general loser like that. Reading posts from then 30+ year olds reminding us how it really doesn't get better, and after years of living the same day to day routine, staying inside, playing my videogames (even though it has been a decade since i truly enjoyed gaming), NEVER going out with anyone and when that happens thrice a year fucking it up cinematically by being a stone-cold non-personality having sperg. It doesnt get any better, it really doesn't, it has to do with a mixture of brain wiring (probably caused mostly by missed developing stages earlier in life) and our parents not truly giving a fuck about us, i vividly remember asking my parents (which im bound genetically to love because they didn't abuse me or anything) about stuff after school such as:" why dont you ask me something, why dont we make conversation?" only to be met by silence. Shit i can't even be passionate about anything, i lack the discipline to actually sit down and put effort into stuff, my unmedicated ADHD doesn't help this, and worst of all? Literally everyone around you is a living, moving, fully animated reminder of how different and lost you truly are.
What are some good SSRI'S? had the idea for a while but never really tried/talked to a specialist.