>insane father who stalked me and abused my mother
>tumour that shattered my upper spine at 13
>born into a economically struggling situation with a single mother
>short and realising no girl will ever be physically attracted to me because of that fact.

How do I accept this is the start to my life? I’m 20 and i already feel so exhausted and suicidal. I’m still trying to carve out a good life but my father keeps harassing me, I still get no attention from girls, I’m still struggling financially and my spine is always uncomfortable so these things are ever present.