>>212144946
you're self-aware but you're not going to fix this shit quickly. go get your GED - my friend did and he said it wasn't bad. free programs exist. apply for warehouse work, or landscaping, or anything physical that doesn't involve customers to make you feel like you're unimportant shit. it's difficult to get in to those smaller businesses, but it's not impossible. work on your rizz. search harder for your niche. i was able to land an apprenticeship with 0 experience or qualifications, and now i have a life that doesn't suck dick. it doesn't sound like you have any major health issues, and that's another good thing. are you autistic nigga? why are you evil nigga? chill the fuck out. do you have any friends or anyone you can practice talking to? maybe you'll find people who you hate less than others, and are fine with your autism and hatred. your mom allows you to live there at her house, so she must care about you. how old are you? if you're under, say, 30, it's not even close to being over. breathe nigga.