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don't listen to this guy >>937131771

i struggle with depression, self-loathing much like yourself and although it never goes away there is a way to manage it

become a wild card anon

put your loyalty entirely into your loved ones like friends and family who you care about, and disregard allegiance to anything else

never let them predict your next move, constantly shift and move in unpredictable patterns, embrace not just chaos but structure, and disregard both on a whim

understand you are not only a subject to the forces of nature but also one of many vehicles they act through. understand that there is no sure meaning or truth, and that this is a beautiful thing because it allows you to create your own truth and meaning. you create your own path, a golden path that you will follow till your end

only after this will you truly be a free man, a wild card, ungovernable and you will be sure of yourself, which they will never be able to take away from you. because you live by your own truth

godspeed anon