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I feel like a shitty old phone camera with a broken lens unable to capture anything but a couple blurry pixels.

Moving my stuff around to make space I found an old sketchbook.
It was during may 2022 when the pandemic was still trying to come back and the factory I worked at was suspended and my uni classes became remote.
I found myself secluded and very tight in money because well my fucking workplace was closed so I wanted to use that time to learn how to draw.
While listening on the background to the droning of online classes playing on my laptop and a pdf of Loomis on my phone I started going through the book.
I never got any good. In the time anons here get really fucking good I barely got to prebeg.
Classes returned, I got my current officecuck job. It was back again to going out to wage at 7am and coming home to my appt from classes at 10pm for another 2 years.
Then I finished my degree and only had to wagecuck.

I would like to say that I didnt draw anymore but I would try to drawfag through the weekends and make some stuff when I come home tired.
I have come to terms with being permabeg. I just lack the eye and the spatial awareness to reproduce anything unless I am borderline tracing.
There is something wrong with me that cant be fixed. I cant even feel sad about it anymore.
Count yourself lucky because you arent subhuman trash like me. adios.