>>11312164
Hey you for sure don't know me if you'd think I'm american, but that's okay.

I came so close to actually trying to give you a fetlife profile, I could tell right away what you are and that need to try and protect you was immediate. You've got that going for you at least.

I do hope you find what you need. My relationships with girls like that are various shades of "its complicated", but I don't know if my close friends also have the same sort of disorder or if its just mental illness, but "seem to like me" is a common theme. No matter how much I tell them they actually are my friends, I'm not doing a weird performance for multiple years to keep up appearances that fear is still there, and they will probably always have it.

>the intense 1 on 1 relationship I crave in my soul to be happy and stable, it's like an anchor for me I think
That's a great way to put it actually. It's deep in your soul, and its literally a anchor, its hard to be stable without it.