I'm having issues trying to find out what am i attracted to

I HATE women, but my currently BF is a FtM trans, my previous ex was a factory-made dude and despite loving my current BG more, i'd say it's a different kind of love

More passionate, yet so distant at the same time

What does that make me ?

I always said that i never cared about gender, but i'm curious to what i'm truly attracted to