>>81961557
>move into SWAT
oh wow thats awesome. good luck!
>my fun is regimented
yea i agree. i think a lot of rules doesnt instantly mean bad, but there's a limit
>they rolled consistent 19s and 20s. I was equally impressed and angry.
tell me about it. i had my party fight a huge demon when they were only lvl 3 and it was supposed to be a (slightly scripted) epic boss battle but they only rolled criticals and it was basically over within like 4 turns. i had to come up with a second phase and made him grew wings to force some misses... in the end it was a pretty cool fight anyway.
>>81961561
>i wish nobody had to deal with memory issues
what memory issues?
>people too rowdy
i mean not really, thats not what bothers me. i've been on the outskirts of moshpits before so, i can deal with people being too close n stuff. its just that, my mind tends to wander into bad thoughts whenever i see people having fun together, it reminds me of how alone i am.
>into autopilot and disassociate
god i wish i could do that...
>makes those memories all the more valuable?
i like to think about it that way aswell. i purposely reminisce certain memories that i really dont want to lose from time to time, so im sure they wont disappear. but i'd be lying if i said i dont get worried i might forget everything some day.
>>81961625
>Might need to re-write the entire thing
that does not sound like fun at all!
>We have already talked about this
oh its you anon! hello. hope youve been doing okay.
>supercharging my sessions
hm, did that actually help you though? also, i think its okay to take breaks from thing you like, even if you haven't burned out yet. sometimes i dont play guitar for days on end.
>>81961874
im sorry you feel that way anon. we're alike, i also wish i could give up, but my irrational brain doesn't let me. try your best to take pride in your determination, even if you hate it. good luck with the game engine thingy.
>slavery without payment
apprenticeship?