Spent the entirety of yesterday doing my online history coursework. Woke up early this morning trying to get my AI coursework done. I think I need to make my breakfasts a little less large, because I get incredibly tired after that. I just slept an hour. With this unsuccessful start to the day I don't feel like trying today. Tomorrow I will try again. Everyday is a battle. Am I going to feel unmotivated today? Am I going to just shutdown and scroll? Are terrible thoughts going to cannibalize my self-worth? Is the loneliness, regret, and shame going to become to much to bear today?
About two weeks ago I decided I was going to give up video games for a while, unless it's a weekend and friends asks me to play--I have to maintain what relationships I do have. Its intended effect was to get me outside more and exercise, but also afford me some time with hobbies. It has been successful in that regard. The boredom sort of forces me into action. I still scroll on my phone. I will see if I can kick that habit by introducing a more structured morning routine and exercise regiment.
It still takes me hours to get ready to go somewhere. I have to shower and it becomes a whole process, for whatever reason my mind doesn't want to shower, but also hates being dirty. They don't have to be 1-2 hour processes where I lose time, they can be shorter 5-10 minute endeavors, I just have to commit. I guess the other thing I hate is the way wet hair feels. The issue is that blow drying my hair dries it out quite a bit, and I've recently gotten in the habit of letting it dry naturally.

not doing great, not doing bad, just survivin'. How is everyone else?