>>40277776
>I finished my speech for my communication class
Oh shit sounds like I was too slow, sorry!!
>I’ve been sexualizing men a lot and keep looking at men constantly.
Hm.. it might also be a healthy libido paired with unmet needs. It is tricky to draw the line, really.
>it feels like I am not treating them as a person but like eye candy
I think that would change on its own when dating, or even befriending! Get acquainted with their interests, passions, belief systems. It will naturally add dimensions to your perception. And it doesn't have to make them less hot either! Of course, since you yourself have been treated poorly I get you don't wanna be like that to someone else, but at the same time that very fear makes it incredibly unlikely it would ever get that far. I think the comparison to that former friend might be close to spiraling. From what you told me there is no indication of you doing anything immoral. There are no thought crimes.
>>40280089
>I know my family cares about me, I'm just not sure if that will always be the case.
Hm, is there something specific that inspires this concern? You out to them? (Sorry if you told me and I forgot)
>Yeah, I find that I have the most amount of trouble with being present.
Definitely trawl the web for grounding techniques as well, we have a small number in the resources but generally it is worth looking into in your case.
>>40280205
>extra few hours of free time
Because something else fell through? Like, if it is predictable gaps a schedule could help, if not then the next best thing is to lower the barrier to the task in any way you can think of. For example, having your hobby stuff in reach. Or having things related to your job search perhaps open in a dedicated browser window.
>Like, try to give myself mini rewards so I don't feel starved for a major one?
Bingo! Counterbalance stressors as they occur. Don't let them pile. You need a pressure valve.