Bros I'm so fucking tilted rn I need to vent this.
>Be me
>5'8" ~70kg skinnyripped
>Killing it in gym today, new shirt, makes my arms and shoulers look huge af
>Finish session and look around local charity stores for cheap books as I usually do (Warrior Scholar)
>Crouching low, looking at the mill on the floss
>Stand and turn
>Holyshit.jpg
>8/10 goth girl looking over me at the bookshelf
>ITS HAPPENING
>She apologises for almost numbing into me
>Realise I still have both headphones in
>Shutdown, brain overstimmed
>Smile creepily to signal "no worries"
>I was about to leave anyway cos I looked at all the books
>So I fucking leave...
>Mfw I just fucked up my only chance
Or so I thought
>Look in the rest of the charity shops looking like picrel
>Walk to car, defeated
>See her waiting at the bus stop
>HOLYSHIT.jpg
>Realise if I couldn't talk to her when there was a good reason, there's no way I'm going to now.
>Walk past her hoping she locks eyes with me
>She doesn't
>Mfw
I COULD HAVE DONE IT I COULD HAVE SPOKE TO HER WTF IS WRONG WITH ME
Wtf is the point of all this self improvement when I'm still a fucking autist. It's not a confidence issue, I looked fucking peak, but I still did NOTHING.
Whatever I have a girlfriend anyway so this just makes me a scumbag for wanting anything more but still, it sucks man.
Anyway.
>Drive all the way home looking like picrel
>Get home, make protein shake, write this drivel