It's your own fault. If you had lifted and read this book (attached) at age 18 you would have had a great life. Women, friends, etc.

You failed because you didn't do anything. There was a point in your life when you had high testosterone and NAD levels, but what did you do? Nothing.

There were ways to become attractive, there were ways to make money, you didn't see or care about them.

The universe gives you one shot, you didn't take it. All opportunities lost.