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>I mean I remember her and I barely even used 4chan around the time she was active
it's also worth mentioning that there was another "cham" before her, and she just took her name because she was always just that good at opsec.
>First, why do you think you're going to die soon? Suicide? A sixth sense? Illness?
suicide. as i said, i can feel my mind slipping more and more by the day because of countless years of isolation. and at this point i don't see a way for things to ever get better. if i keep living, i'm just going to completely schizo, even more so than i am now, and i just don't see that as being worth it.
>Why do you think talking to her would bring either of you closure?
i'm a completely different person than the one she knew 5 years ago. i mostly want to tell her that she was right about everything she ever said to me. and that there wasn't a single day when i didn't regret hurting her and throwing all her kindness and compassion away. on some days, it would be all i could think about. i'm posting pics of characters i remember she liked, so that if she ever sees this, she knows i have no ill intent.