i don't know what to believe anymore.
i used to believe that the world was controlled from the shadows by religious/satanist factions working towards some esotheric goal hidden from everyone.

but then i see absurd stuff like trump and zelensky in the white house and can't help but think of everything as just constant chaos, each person working for their own limited interests, a constant omni-directional tug of war.

i feel like i'm going insane.