>>40060152
>If I would just be able to brainwash myself into buying into the religion I could maybe push away my tranny urges.

I literally left the Jehova witness (i'm technically still part of the cult because i don't want my mom to stop talking to me) because I was a tranny and the tranny thougths we're too much to bear even if I believed in the religion I thougth God killing me in the war of Armagedon was better than living an eternal life of misery in paradise, I still get the wanting to join a cult urges and will probably join a catholic charity org when I'm in a comfy spot in my transitioning and can pass.

I fell for the i'm Paradise God will give you whatever you want trap, and i thougth he would make me a real woman

Also your picrel is one of the goated jw Illustrations ngl. Anyways cult life is kinda fun but you can get comunnity in other places that arent pussies about changing the world for the better and don't make you hate yourself for your tranny thougths. Also if you are going jw try to not get kids to promise their life to Jehova and live their whole lifes under the treaht of being shunned from their families of they ever change opinion