I also have very magical thinking that bolsters my creativity but also affects my world views in various ways.
But by far the most devilish thing for me is game design (mechanics and gameplay over premises), its stuff i cant stop thinking about. Yet i would never ever want to spend a second learning programming cause its so insufferable and gay.
The irony is that at the end of the day i dont really care about all of this shit and if i could i would rather be if not a hunter gatherer, then a fisherman in a tropical country just fishing and spending all day in the sun and leaving simply. I also see some girls irl sometimes and i know that i could have them easier than the average guy does (because of some of my physical parameters), but im not interested in them, mostly because i dont see the point because for me civilized life is huge prison and we've all been fucked up since before we could even learn to talk. Im a khhv btw still. Socially i have isolated myself from humans, out of disinterest and maybe out of contempt, i think very often that i would like to unlearn the human languages, to stop comprehending thoughts or at least to have a "firewall" that blocks all human-made noise including speech. I think it would be way better to be an insect like a bug like a grasshopper or a dragonfly than to be a human. I rlly envy grasshoppers.
Honestly speaking i am quite glad that the AI is here because its consistently able to take away a little metal burden off of me; but it also enables me to indulge even more at times.