>>40320503
>but what happens if i regret it? if im faking dysphoria and dont realize it what if i wake up one morning and its gone?
Be in the present moment and think about such things when they do happen and if they even happen.
>ive wasted my whole life and all around my are people just casually living theirs and its entirely my fault
You didn't waste your whole life, you're also living right now, you're alive! And hopefully you'll live for many more years while you carve your own little piece of happiness!