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I feel like my life is at a crossroads. I'll either troon out and possibly become a hon forever, or I'll try to get over this mental problem at the risk of failure, and it always being there in the back of my mind.
The problem is that I'm tired. Too tired to make a choice. Too tired to care about what happens to me. I'm so fucking drained I feel like a rotting corpse whose soul left weeks ago.
Is this my fate? To just shamble around until I can't leech off my family anymore and then die? Is this it?
It doesn't have to be, that I'm aware, but how do I find the energy when I'm too tired to even make coffee in the morning? There's just nothing left for me to give.
How do I get my soul back?