>>531142715
Yeah so how do I put is, I accidentally became a blood mage
I did several options to find out what happened, so I had saved before and after (like, would she actually suck me off or kill me?) , I got interested in the blood magic so I looked up online if it was the only place to pick it up, and apparantly if you reload right after striking a deal for blood magic with her, the blood magic becomes baked in the save file of the character, like, baked in.

I loaded in to check, and indeed, I had accidentally become exactly what I wanted.
It was unintentional but... I'm not going to try to fix it, because if fits my character.