I used to have it all. From age 20 to 28 I lived the dream – decent job, stable income, loyal wife, apartment, plans for the future.

Then came stress, burnout, a psychiatrist, and a deadly combo: SSRIs + Xanax.
I was drinking 14–16 beers daily to "cope," thinking I was in control. I wasn’t.

The moment I mixed benzos, antidepressants, and alcohol, I began spiraling fast.
Blackouts, rage, wrecked relationships. Lost my job. Wife left. Crashed my car with a DUI and ended up in jail.

Now I'm 30. Sitting in a state rehab. In debt. Facing court. Psych says the brain damage is permanent with 80% bold brain left. Suicidal depression and anxiety, no short term memory, p libido and emotionally numb. On 5 different meds. Down to 1.5mg Xanax per day. Been 1 month sober from alcohol. Still feel like I want to die every day.

But I'm trying.
I have nothing left but this shot at rebuilding.

Ask me anything.
Or tell me if you've been through something similar.
I won’t lie or sugarcoat shit.