Man, I read the entire thread and I have to tell you, I hate you all motherfuckers itt so god damn much.
Fuck you, truly. I hate you losers who take great personalized advice posted by anons itt for granted. It should have been me who is posting here and getting advice. It should have beeeen me who is cared for.

It should have been me who is getting multiple people worried about his mental health state. Many 3-post long replies even from multiple people with amazing advice. How long does it even take to write a 4k-6k word post? an hour when its though out? More?
It should be me who gets dozens of hours of attentions and kindness but don't bother to even to reply to them because I am le tired and depressed.
I really wish to convey this. The amount of care you get and take for granted is unfair, it should have been directed at me instead. All these good boy points should be mine.

All my relationships are one-sided where I am the rock. GF, family, friends. Holy fucking shit nigger even my co-workers rely on me for advice. I AM A BITCH TOO, I AM SAD TOO, I GET TIRED TOO. WHY ARE YOU EVEN ASKING ME?
Just got back a few hours ago from cheeking up on a zoomer coworker after a deep long talk with him a few weeks prior (hes melting due to pressure hes feeling, typical young adult stuff). The talk helped greatly, obviously. He feels amazing, he is not worried anymore. He took my advice, practised it and literally his entire problematic family situation is fixed. I LIVE FOR THESE THINGS. I ENJOY THEM IMMENSELY, SEEING ANOTHER PERSON GROW IS THE BEST FEELING YET, BEING PRAISED FOR IT IS THE BEST. WHAT A TRULY WORTHWHILE IDEAL TO STRIVE TO. BUT WHAT ABOUT MEEEEEEEE FUCK.

I am stuck and so full of it I've had enough. Irregardless of the above, tomorrow will come and I will put on good face. Tomorrow I will let others lean on me again. Tomorrow I will still be terrified that my only worth is in this, and I won't open to anyone.

Sincerely,
FUCK YOU
Good day, Fitness.