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>any idea what’s been causing it
Bashed my knee into a bit of machinery at work probably 2 months back and just never really had a chance to let it recover. Ended up running a couple of miles today at a middling pace (bout 7:36mm) just to test it out, and it seemed okay. I'm really, really tired now, though.
>Feigning a “normal” level of emotional openness
I guess I feign confidence okayish in my day-to-day, I just sort of play the role of a person I no longer am in work, etc, and it seems believable enough that people go along with it.
There are times, though, where I think I visibly freak out or shut down a bit, mostly when the men are doing their "sexual harassment as male dominance" thing, even though i'm not the subject of that harassment (well so far, i'm not sure how i'd respond then)
>specific work contexts
Just any time it gets busy, and I feel like I'm failing to stay on top of it all or not meeting expectations, I know I get distressed, sometimes angry (I guess a mix of both) when my performance in my job is questioned because I don't feel like I am bad at my job and then it's like being a kid again and dealing with another person with authority that just wont believe you no matter what you do/say so maybe I'm just pushing myself to try and avoid that situation.
Sometimes when I'm out in public and just feel like there's too much going on it'll trigger but I normally just hide in my headphones to avoid that.