>wasted my life playing videogames and watching anime
>didn't develop any skills during my teenage years
>can't even have fun with vidya anymore so no more escapism left for me
stay out of vidya. you're not supposed to have fun. biologically speaking life's not supposed to be fun. life's supposed to be a constant struggle for survival. not developing any skills to use and build a career from it is like an animal being born crippled in the wild. develop your skills while you still can.