>>40447320
I left for a couple of weeks cuz life and when I came back the two confirmed cisf chasers that were floating the thread arent around anymore. I don't know any of these other names. Is it over already? ;[
>>40447317
Oooh, now yer talking with a bit more spice, cutiepie. <3 Your wording comes across a bit anxious, though. It's okay, I dont bite. Well, I do, but...

>>40192860
My path was very much the same. I actually got estrogen pills at 18 with the help of a friend and ended up flushing them due to fear and anxiety. At 18 I could pass as a woman... so I backflipped deep into the closet for over a decade. Finally transitioned at 30. Fortunately I have some luckshit genes in my family, so im not a total ogre.. but definitely a shadow of what I would have been if I had followed through at 18. Puberty hit me full force in my early 20s after some starts and stops in my teens. Ruined my voice, put hair in places I didnt want to have, squared my jaw and shoulders... shit sucked. But on the flip side, Im short compared to the men in my family. Im 5'9" (confirmed repeatedly by doctors after measuring 6') for years and the shortest man in my family is a mere 6'4". My Mom is taller than me. So I was always going to be a Valkyrie, it seems.
Best thing I've come up with is to just treat my past like a book. I can read from it, even tell stories to others to help them out, but I cannot live in it. I still have more than half my life ahead of me, which will all be spent as a woman.