I think I've been doing well recently, he and I went on a date, we watched movies, walked around, and while I wasn't too into it at first he picked me up when I mentioned I was getting tired and I really started to play into the whole "little sister" role which got us both really horny, by the time we got home I didn't feel disgusted anymore in the slightest.

I'm not sharing the details of what we did but it still a step up where we were coming from, and our affection was mutual this time. I waited for the clarity to hit me, but it didn't I just genuinely had fun yesterday. I'm really happy I could finally give him that kind of intimacy, and we went back to cuddling again, so it's a step in a warmer direction.

Not sure how to bond with him besides what we're already doing, but he says we should be closer, so I'll spend more time around him.

I also got a really cute dress while we shopped, he let me pick out 2 outfits and I got that and a skirt + hoodie combo.

5'6, transfem, mildly passing

So, update, most of you probably WON'T remember me, and I am grateful for that fact but to recap basically I messed up and did it with my brother and suffice to say I don't feel much better about that night.

We've been pretty wholesome with each other, he's been really nice to me and making sure I'm not lonely, but despite it being so long with so long with us together I'm just not comfortable sleeping with him. I shouldn't be anyway, he tells me that we're fine together and I shouldn't worry what other people think (not that I have told anyone besides this hell site) but I don't want to keep him waiting.

He's stopped coming onto me, and I want to match his pace, but there's just a block in my mind whenever I'm not extremely horny.