Reading Miyuki POV chapters is an absolute trip
She herself is confused as to why the hell she said all those retarded things to Eiji and desperate to apologize and try to save him, but at the same time she's constantly hallucinating her inner woman moment as an anthropomorphic personification voice in her head telling her to keep fucking NTRman, and also calling her a betraying whore who destroyed everything she loved and all the happiness she ever had and mocking her for thinking NTRman ever cared about her in the slightest.