>>33341000
>What kind of hobbies
Vocaloid, kpop and indie music production, which have a fairly similar demographic overlap despite people from kpop getting hated by the other two sub-niches. Made an inappropriate comment to someone I shouldn't have when I was 18 and got banned from a couple servers from it. It's been 5 years since then, but I've basically been unable to recover from that.
And virtual youtubing, which has a stronger focus on streaming than youtubing, oddly enough. Learned i do not like watching most streamers and don't like streaming games for long periods of time. Plus I'm not a composer or very good at live music or anything that requires me to be quick-witted. I'm very slow and most streamer friends I've met are...kind of vapid and only focus on either ASMR and playing Flavor of the month games which I do not have the money to afford, and if I did, I'd probably invest in better headphones or soundproofing my room. The only game I can see myself playing is an MMO with a subscription I also cannot afford.
>Maybe you can try some new things
I want to get back into blender modeling and editing, since I like that type of work, but doing them by myself really kills my motivation when I sit there for long periods of time and my mind begins to remember how many people do not like me. I can't work with music to drown out the thoughts because then I'll just start singing or dancing to the song that's playing, which is too much of a distraction. Maybe I could try uploading dance videos, but I don't want to show my face...
>captcha
Huh...