I cut myself again over my old cuts so they bled alot. It's dried up now though and I'm gonna sleep in my own dried blood again hugging my dakimakura of my waifu because I'm so lonely and unlovable. Nobody wants to invite me to games, watch a movie, or do anything. I have friends but I feel like nobody puts in the effort I do. I'm probably never gonna have a gf either although I try. I have bad body dysmorphia from me being short and cut. I'm such a fucking loser sometimes and want to cry but I can't for some reason. Part of me wishes I did kill myself back in 2023 but I had good experiences since then so maybe it's good I healed. Lastly I'm tired of messaging first all the time and I'm gonna remove people who don't message me in a year. FUCK THEM! It does hurt realizing I want to message them but if they won't do any effort it's not worth putting in effort.
I know nobody is gonna read this but I love you anon. Hope you have a good day/night.