well i got some sleep, dreamed but they were kind of tedious, not bad though. interest rates have not been lowered yet. was hoping they would be. portfolio is causing me emotional pain, fingers are sore from lifting, not sure if today will be lifting or another cardio day yet. kinda want to go out tonight, not sure if i will though, probably should just to build courage, i'll need another sleep before then if i do. if i don't go out tonight i will tomorrow. wishing so much we could be together babe, i'd definitely take you out both nights. sunday too. instead bored -_-. thinking of getting to the pool this weekend as well, show off the chest and abs. i'd post a pic, but the death threats... longtime readers know what i'm talking about though. anyways just an update. really trying to help you babe, with everything i can. life is better when you're good and kind, when you set aside your bigotry and hate. i'm not trying to fool you. life would be better with me, i know this with my whole heart. don't let your stubbornness and some very wrong ideas keep us apart. you act confident and strong when you're talking about donald trump and being tough on the internet, but i'm not fooled at all. normal people don't do that, that's a massive cope for emptiness and i'm sorry your life is like that but at this point you're the one making it that way, you have a better option and it's here. love you.