bros i have actually lost the will to live
i thought it would be characterized by intense emotion or something but it is actually me lying in bed all day, ignoring the need to piss for 4 hours until eventually i muster the will to get up and do that, then i lie back down

all the gym equipment i was using every day is strewn around the backyard, untouched since 6 months ago. the desire to know anything is gone, i don't study and i don't remember things i look up. don't even play computer games. i don't do anything and it isn't because i am "depressed", it is because the motive force intrinsic to human beings down to the fundamental desires to avoid pain or discomfort is gone. it is the absence of anything, just the fucking void like i already died.

i don't even have the energy to be a piece of shit. can't wank all day, don't feel like drinking or smoking weed. don't feel like eating.

i've needed a vr headset to chat with friends since the beginning of the year, and i only need it for vr chat.

i have not been able to make a single purchase because people said to wait for deckard, or get 'quest pro' (discontinued). the amount of money i put in the vr headset savings fund is actually around $5000 now because i keep adding to it, but every time i try to buy anything, i look at reviews, and every single headset is absolutely the worst shit ever according to the internet. what the fuck am i supposed to buy? i want eye tracking and face tracking, don't want to play games necessarily. i need an answer

is waiting for deckard really the "correct" thing to do? what the fuck. should i buy a fucking car or 10 high end prostitutes instead at this point? why is buying the "RIGHT" vr headset impossible? if i get it wrong, i would have wasted $2000 easily and then need to buy a new thing all over again.

>the bibisi propaganda finally got to me
Get off this website while there is still hope.

>>81541092
>twenty-seventeen

>>81479688
nobody knows all the trouble ive seen