That was the thread replay, courtesy of me.
As promised, a swimsuit reward!
>>40213987
>I can relate to that. I feel like I’m ready for it to happen.
We'll be there once it does.
>I need to figure out who I am without that.
>And that scares me.
Closure, in a way. It is the kind of change that creeps up on you. Would you say you have recently tried to please them? Hm.. the one thing I know for certain is that you are kind to others in the face of things that would render most beyond disagreeable. Sometimes you aren't kind to yourself (>>40225231) but I think in spite of hurts and habits, there is a sweet core to you. What you have already is fertile ground for admirable qualities that are not in any need of serving anyone, I think.
>>40212532
>When I am around people that I haven't seen in years I regress to the person I was back then intead of being the person Ive become now.
That is a pretty common experience actually! Here is a slightly touchy question:
>I dont like the old me.
what qualities did old you embody you dislike? And do your old friends share them?
>>40213046
>Yeah, seems like the nicotine just hits all at once with pouches.
So what's your game plan, smaller patches, or perhaps nic gums?
>>40211559
>I've been out of a - definitely unsafe - relationship for 3 months and counting.
I'm happy to hear, Anon. Especially the "not in imminent danger" part. Remember, we're here to listen, too.
>Now I'm trying to find out what made me numb to my own feelings
After escaping an abusive situation usually two things happen. First numbness for a while, no emotions are you are still in survival mode. Then, what can happen is you freak out even though you are safe. That is called backdraft and is well documented. I'm not a shrink so for more you might wanna have a pro look at you but reconnecting with emotions is definitely a journey, it is normal it takes time.
>Try to read some pages from my book or exercise.
Sounds like a plan, by the way!