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>I plan to explain my situation to them as fully as possible sometime this week.
Perfect! Please, keep me posted.
>I have this weird feeling, where I feel like I need permission to do anything at all.
If it helps even a tiny bit, I will gladly pen you specific permissions for as many things as it takes to subvert your brain into letting you help yourself. Free of charge, heh.
>I wish I wasn't so dependant on the mercy of other people, it's stressful.
It is. It always is. So often when I help loved ones my biggest hurdle are third parties. It is a constant.
>I don't wanna emotionally drain anyone
You don't just by leaning on people. People need being needed. Have faith in that.
>Thank you. I feel a bit better.
I'm happy to hear that.
>I don't want to make a bad reputation for myself or my family by being myself around people.
Difficult. I suppose there is no harm in being strategic with "useful" people, but looking out for people to keep around for the sake of cherishing them is a good idea nonetheless. Permission to let yourself be loved granted.
>I really hope so.
I will affirm you as often as you need it. I will never tire of that.
>I really hope I can afford to do that one day.
I cannot wait to see it happen. I am rooting for you.
>>40106738
>been secretly wishing someone would care about me first.
Hey.. that is normal. If nothing else, you deserve emotional support even if you are the one doing the heavy lifting. That is what support networks are for.
>My therapist barely helps
Hm.. for context, are you one of the Anons I frequently talk to? As for other people, I get it. People are a mixed bag. But some people won't be the way you fear, and some people will correct themselves if asked.
>But I've been listening to society and other ppl too much.
>I have to love myself more than anyone else ever will
I fully support that, though. And I would love to get to know you better to offer what little I can to supplement.