I have messed up in the strangest way
>go back to dota after a decade long hiatus
>tell my friends I would only queue with them to avoid getting addicted again
>follow the rule for 10 months, Im a bad player so consistenly terrible K/D and player damage
>on a moment of weakness decide to solo queue in secret to get a bit better
>get my first ever deathless game where I carried the game as pos 3 with 22 kills
I dont want my friends to know I broke my promise. Im afraid of queueing with them now because if I get showcased before the match it will for sure show the last game K/D as a highlight, so I will have to play a new match to cover it up. Worst of all is that this is a huge achievement for me and I wont ever speak about it with them.