hi robots i wanted to vent a lil
im in my early 30s and i feel im fucking up my life
when i was in hs i used to go to clubs and parties and i used to approach women ('hey would you give me a kiss') and some said yea (a lot said no too) and i just didn't care i was carefree and happy
then after hs i became kind of a neet, playing vidya and watching porn
i did get a degree and then a job and got my own place and stuff towards my mid-late 20s
i visited a lot of whores during this time, maybe around 50 thinking it'd help me talk to women, so i tried tinder and i got a few matches but i fumbled them because i just don't know how to be normal (one girl said 'do you only talk about movies?')
during covid i kinda started watching sissy hypno vids and i also installed grindr and got drunk and sucked a few cocks during this time, it felt good because it's validation and it made me feel attractive but it's not healthy for me
so now im trying to go back to being kind of straight and carefree again but idk how to go about it
thank u for reading!
