im 27, no friends, virgin, no job, ugly, and I took estrogen even tho I don’t have dysphoria bc I have agp and got obsessed. How do I fix my life should I just kms

why did I have to be agamp why couldn’t I just be a normal chaser

my normie cis friends asked if I wanted to go to miami with them and i said no bc of anxiety and now im just rotting at home regretting not going

I think Im kinda starting to regret stopping E. Tbhon I didn’t think the effects would come this fast I thought I would be able to ease into them. Now I smell and my skin feels oily as shit my hair is falling out and I think I’ve already lost fat in my thighs. Idk why my body has to be so androgen sensitive why can’t I have normal male hormone levels and also have a nice body is that so much to ask. oh well guess this is my life now