I just learned that my ex that currently goes by the name of Cremation Lily, used to go by Godspeed, is playing ffxiv again and taking part in these threads.

I just wanted to make this post so that in case anyone gets involved with him and they happen to look up his name in the archive, they'll find this post.

This man is diagnosed with ASPD - Antisocial Personality Disorder. More commonly known as sociopathy. It means he doesn't feel empathy, he doesn't know right from wrong, and he never feels sorry for the things he does wrong. This caused countless issues in my relationship with him which lasted from 2022 until late 2024, at which point I dumped him when he started yelling "KILL YOURSELF" at me over and over, over some nonsense meaningless fucking argument. I then asked him if he truly meant it when he yelled that at me and he said that yes, he wholeheartedly did. Prior to this I had taken tons of verbal abuse and threats from him over the course of the relationship, but that was the last straw at which point the feelings I had for him were overcome by the little self-respect I had left for myself.

For the longest time I thought that despite his mental illness, even he deserved love. That even he could grow to care and feel something for someone else. I was wrong.

Don't get involved with this person. He's obese and a coward so he's not going to actually do anything violent to you (despite his tough-guy talk about how he's a "badass drug dealer who plays russian roulette with his friends"). But he is extremely mentally abusive as well as verbally abusive, and just a trash piece of shit person with trash piece of shit values.

His background is that he's originally from tumblr, which is why he holds a lot of old-school tumblrite views, nowadays he gets his opinions and world-news from left-twitter and the streamer Hasan Piker.

Before me he was larping as a girl on here, on EU. Immediately after me he was chasing puppygirl teen transgirls on twitter. He's 31.