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>Did you have specific shows you watched that contained such displays
Yeah, I did. webm related in particular from Halo 2. lmao. and random shows on TV and stuff.
I know a guy who is into that from the masochist perspective, and would do self-bondage stuff growing up. I find it really fascinating for the same reasons. What's the genesis? Why did I develop this way? And that "frustration" feeling - I remember it vividly. It's so strange having these aesthetic/erotic impulses before you can even begin to understand their function
>Do you know of any other books that discuss such subjects?
I think Gerard Reve had similar preoccupations as Mishima, but a lot of his stuff isn't translated into English.
