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>Hebe argument
That'd be one of the things I keep in my back pocket, I've just never gotten to use it outside of 4chan. Again, you do realize that this is something you generally can't share with people, but this type of inability to share one's beliefs goes for so much of myself that I can't breathe. Maybe it's just me being more of a pussy than other people that also spend their lives masking, but I really really wish there was someone I could share my thoughts with.
>literally can't even think of an example
I enjoy talking to you. Despite my bratty responses, I swear I enjoy talking to you. But I've had a ton of other people in your shoes that stopped interacting with me for stating my genuine opinion, or even things close to it. I lost a female friend a few years back because I made a lighter version of the hebe thing in regards to me not caring that Ryuko from Kill la Kill is supposedly 17, because realistically what the hell is the difference between 17 and 18, it's not like they magical become a different person the millisecond the clock does a single tick forwards.

Independently of how much you tell me how it's all in my head and my identity is all normal, I'm starving for conversations like these where I can at least verbalize parts of my issue and I'm nothing short of terrified of losing another cool person to interact with because I peeled off too much from the mask.

It's not just me being different either, it's my environment constantly expecting me to be different from what I really am.

My parents want me religious, connected to their country of origin and positive towards immigration, women that are interested in me think I can fulfill their violent abuser fantasies because I look like a jacked terrorist, my uni and old school mates want me to agree to their political beliefs and I could go on. I never get a chance to be just me, and when I do, people assume it's satirical or wait for me to sign that it was a joke