>>281507009
Parents didn't raise me properly. All they focused on what outside appearance. They denied ADHD meds yet made a scene whenever I screwed up in school.
My mother stunned my development by coddling me so much. In retrospect there were clear signs of anxiety and ocd, but they ignored them. During middleschool I got IBS and it spiraled out of control thanks to ocd and anxiety. It was around that time I tried to overcorrect my babied self by becoming self sufficient, which left me all alone. Everything worked flawlessly together to ruin my life. I dropped out of school. I became a shut-in. It's has been. 13 years since then.

My retarded parents simply ignored my messed up condition despite me starting fights every other day out of frustration. I was unable to concentrate due to my condition. Despite trying again and again I wasn't able to learn anything during that time. I managed to read a few technical books, but it was seriously exhausting. So I drowned myself in fiction. Anime, manga, hentai, novels until I was living in this worlds.

Nothing matters. The present and future are too tainted. All I want is a second chance. The possibility to redo my life. It was unfair! My parents stunned my development with their stupidity.