It makes me sick thinking about how much time I've wasted just seeking social interaction. I'm no where near as a bad as I used to be, but I realised after spending most of my day refresh and just staring blankly at my socials like a catatonic just how fucking retarded this is. I could have spent that time doing literally anything else; learning, hobbies, working on myself, staring at a brick wall instead of piling up bad experiences and chasing ghosts. Is this foid brained or a mentally ill thing?
None of the men I've known do this stupid shit, they have endless knowledge to spill on WWII or Rome, they're content to watch 10 hour videos on wood burning
How do I learn to embrace seclusion and LOCK IN like you guys?