>>64194998
ill write to you in english out of politeness since we are on an anglospeak board and they are not aryan enough for german.

Leave the city. You need a change to get off the same depressing views which take you back. go into a green small town with lots of woods and lakes around, go into nature. its for free. Go to one of the really rural states, Tyrol, Carinthia, Styria. Cities like Klagenfurt offer a lake, wood, mountains in bycicle distances or trains / bus which take you everywhere. and much lower living costs than vienna, less sandniggers and a healthcare system which isnt overrun by said sandniggers.
go into a shooting or sports club there.
get off the fucking screens, i mean it. no constant cellphone/labtop time. move your body, do smth with your hands, get into the sun. make yourself a sports routine and and get a library pass. costs almost nothing. do smth you liked to do as a kid, i started building model planes again, low level just for fun.
but leave the place of your trauma and free your mind from social media and video entertainment, you need to get your dopamine levels back to normal.

a 2nd hand shotgun or a new single bore inkluding some boxes of birdshot costs approx. 200-300, a short 2nd hand hunting rifle can be had from 300-400 on. save for it, make it your project.
and remember: there will always be a next day with a new morning.