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when I dissociate though, it feels like I lose the original 'me' and latch onto those other things as an identity
none of this really makes sense as I'm saying it though, its not something I can really put into words other than declaring that "it is", like a color or sense
I want to fall deeper and deeper into dissociation but I can't do DXM anymore without risking a hospital visit
I just want to eliminate my "self" completely