Has it finally happened? Did I age out of gaming?
I had a super easy slacker life for a decade. I worked as a night security guard and I just played vidya and watched TV all night and got paid for it. It was so easy/fun. I was an avid gamer for the first 35 years of my life, playing probably 30 hrs/week on average.
Now I'm a father and I have a "real" job and a house and a mortgage, etc. I'm fucking busy. I work full time at a "real" job where I have to actually work, and then I have a lot of shit to do outside of work, like taking care of the house, taking care of my kid, etc.
But, I do have some down time. I get 90 mins or two hours to unwind most days, and on the weekends I get more. I have hours on the weekends where I could just sit and game if I wanted to. The problem is, I just can't get into it anymore.
This makes no sense to me. Back when I was a night guard and I could game like 100 hrs/week, I didn't, and sometimes I got bored of gaming so I'd do other stuff. That makes sense. Too much of a good thing. But now, I only get maybe 15 hrs/week to game. You'd think that time would be precious. You'd think I'd want to game even more now that my time is limited. But the reverse has happened. I sit down and start a game and then just immediately close it because I don't feel like playing it.
What the fuck happened? Is this why people stop gaming? Problem is, I don't feel motivated to do anything else. I already read and work out. I don't want to read and work out even more.
Something is wrong, I hate gaming now
