out looking for a job today and i walked into the liquor store, deliberately avoiding the dollar store beside it because a woman who used to come in and make me uncomfortable at my old job works there and i did not want to see her, to ask if they were hiring. AND THE WOMAN WORKS AT THE LIQUOR STORE NOW so i was literally about to turn heel and run out the door but she looked at me and i said hi i'm looking for a job and she took a few seconds to place me but remembered who i was and figuratively dragged me by the wrist through like a twenty-minute conversation about jobs and job-searching and my life and what i'm doing now and i don't know how to say "no" so i went along with it and ended up telling her that i'm worried about working in elementary ed and she started going on about how hard it is for teachers nowadays because they're taking away parents' rights and how the state wants to control our kids and there's "a lot of evil" going on in schools and that i'm such a brave and good person for wanting to take all that on as an educator and all i could do was nod along until she asked me if i went to church and like the fucking idiot that i am i said no not for a long time but i have been thinking about maybe going back and she said Oh Here Are Some Good Churches to Try; Don't Go to These Ones, Though, They Are Apostate and Have No Conviction of beliefs and throughout this entire experience i was screaming in my head and could not leave but on the bright side i guess that means i'm not as visibly trans as i thought because Holy Fucking Shit dude this description here does not even capture a fraction of the discomfort and psychic torment i endured why does she work there now why wasn't she at the dollar store where she was supposed to be why is she preaching her beliefs to me