>>41316441
Heya Anon, pardon the late reply. I tend to post three times a week replying to most people that haven't been yet. Slow general but alive!
Loneliness is a silent killer, and with a life as busy as yours there are a couple options worth considering, however, all of them will require some time investment. You could try local stores and such related to your interests. Card game stores usually hold small tournaments in most places I have been, or know where to ask, just as an example. Depends on how urban your general area is. Local lgbt things, volunteer work, your partner's friend circle, old classmates (if there are people you could imagine reaching out to)..
>>41316544
>>41316856
Let me preempt this by saying that I am very proud of you for having made an appointment, I understand how scary/difficult it is. The insurance thing is of course a major issue, sadly these things are too country dependent for me to be of much help, but I am glad your father supports you at least. Tell me how monday went, okay? We're here for you.
>did i think he was just trying to pull some kind of retarded prank? what is wrong with me
The most common vicious cycle related to meds I have seen is
>med stabilizes
>"oh I am much better I guess I don't need this stuff anymore"
>things slowly and subtly deteriorate
>eventually realize how bad its gotten and get back on med
This is not a you thing. This is human nature. It's a subtle thing and without someone with the experience and knowledge to articulate this risk, how could you know? We all live for the first time, Anon.
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>>40356663
>Yeah. My psych said something similar
Makes sense, tricky a thing. I also read the thailand thing which kinda amused me.
>It's pretty much always been me who drew away, in all of my friendships.
>I couldn't connect with them on a deeper level. It's not a rational thing. I don't know...
This is very interesting actually. Was your psych the one that mostly prescribes meds, I remember you wanting to look for a therapist independently of that but I forgot what came of it.
>I'd still rather just save myself the trouble.
It must be hard, feeling like you never truly connect with people. Many people feel this way, like aliens. But it can be for so many different reasons. Usually, when people here do, it relates to inhibitions, and focusing on their differences. Or, in other cases, the fact that nobody around them had experiences in any way like their own. These are all things I know how to grapple with, but what you describe is different in kind. More deeply connected to your attachment style, so I am not really competent to give actionable advice. Recently been linked to a youtube channel of someone specializing in attachment related things (https://www.youtube.com/@heidipriebe1 discussed above), but the videos are 40 minutes a pop and I haven't had the time to watch them.
>I don't really have deep interest, I only read like the first half of Ethics.
Very fair, but I suppose you catch my general sentiment! And, thank you for the elaboration, it absolutely sounds like something I would enjoy looking into!
>I enjoy talking to you as well, for what it's worth.
I'm happy to hear, Anon! It is, in the moments things work out, a pleasant thing to share the things we know, isn't it? I mean, my memory is spotty but all of this, I do remember as much, started from a discussion about motivation and rekindling love for doing things.
>>40357752
Thank you, Anon.
>Yeah. My psych said something similar
Makes sense, tricky a thing. I also read the thailand thing which kinda amused me.
>It's pretty much always been me who drew away, in all of my friendships.
>I couldn't connect with them on a deeper level. It's not a rational thing. I don't know...
This is very interesting actually. Was your psych the one that mostly prescribes meds, I remember you wanting to look for a therapist independently of that but I forgot what came of it.
>I'd still rather just save myself the trouble.
It must be hard, feeling like you never truly connect with people. Many people feel this way, like aliens. But it can be for so many different reasons. Usually, when people here do, it relates to inhibitions, and focusing on their differences. Or, in other cases, the fact that nobody around them had experiences in any way like their own. These are all things I know how to grapple with, but what you describe is different in kind. More deeply connected to your attachment style, so I am not really competent to give actionable advice. Recently been linked to a youtube channel of someone specializing in attachment related things (https://www.youtube.com/@heidipriebe1 discussed above), but the videos are 40 minutes a pop and I haven't had the time to watch them.
>I don't really have deep interest, I only read like the first half of Ethics.
Very fair, but I suppose you catch my general sentiment! And, thank you for the elaboration, it absolutely sounds like something I would enjoy looking into!
>I enjoy talking to you as well, for what it's worth.
I'm happy to hear, Anon! It is, in the moments things work out, a pleasant thing to share the things we know, isn't it? I mean, my memory is spotty but all of this, I do remember as much, started from a discussion about motivation and rekindling love for doing things.
>>40357752
Thank you, Anon.