>>40843911
real. im going through something pretty similar i think
i cant handle transitioning. its wrecked my mind and caused me immense suffering but i think thats only because i was taught to hate myself at a young age. and thats something that will never leave me
at one point i thought it was trauma that made me trans. but now i know thats not the case. if i was loved as a child i could have been a normal girl and grown into a functional woman. and that thought haunts me. it scares me! it leaves every single cell in my body in arrest and it makes me nauseous.
im only 23. i feel ancient but in reality thats still young enough to do something with this awareness. im just not sure what.
