>>33607830
>but I do feel like I have to exercise this self restraint a lot more than others due to my circumstances, or at the very least, you can view it as me being weaker and more prone to feeling lonely due to it, call me a pussy if ya will.
This has next to nothing to do with you being 'weaker', you may very well have to expend more energy than the average person to '''fit in''' and curb what you say and feel, and this is all very unfair, and everyone has to do this to some degree. That is nobody's fault, that's just life. But complaints and idle daydreams about the best or worst of all possible worlds get you, at best, less than nothing. What if your 'authentic self' is just not who you are when you have no constraints or obligations or protocols, but how you carry yourself and live with those rules and etiquettes anyway?