It’s all so demoralizing
I pine after a girl who won’t show any consistency at all because I’m stubborn to a fault. I put in all the effort to maintain friendships and never receive any in return, even from some of my closest friends. I try to get out there and do all this cool shit to live my life but can’t escape the need for recognition and it falls on uncaring deaf ears anyway. I’m just the same fucking forgettable everyman I was in highschool that I am post grad.
I could probably count on one hand the number of people who aren’t my immediate family that even know when my birthday is.
I don't understand why I keep going but i do anyway